[[ Trapped Behind The Windows]]

Sunday, February 18, 2007

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TODAE is 1st dae of new yr..... actuali i find it veri meaningless diz yr... y??

coz, number 1, we diz yr nv go the clementi that side....

coz tt time when someting happen to my grandma,

they refuses to go see my grandma...

therefore my god father who was my mum's elder bro, dun wan to go there....

my mum no choice oso dun go....

so dizz yr we onli go my uncle hse, my grandma hse and aunty hse.. 3 stops onli....

at my uncle hse,

i gt lots of ang pao, coz, most relatives

frm my dad side all went to my uncle hse which is just a few block beside us...

we had our lunch there and went to the next stop which was my grandma hse....

this is my 1st time going to my grandma new hse.

after they have move there 1 mths or even more , i had not visit grandma...

seeing grandma's white and little hair, i felt so upset and regret y i nv visit her more often. grandma was so happy when she saw me, as i got 1yr nv go visit her le.....

i promise, whenever i got time, i would like to visit her...

and treasure the time with her....

at aunty hse, there's not much ppl....

onli 4 at the majong table n one in the kichen... no1 else is there...

life over there is like hell loh....

nothing to do there... no show to watch......no food to eat....

diz yr is no longer my dad playing majong

but end up is my mum playing it...

my mum have been training with my neighbours, my mum's majong gang

and waited for diz dae....

every yr, is my mum who find it boring and to go home

while my dad enjoying himself...

lol... but diz yr is totalli opposite....

finalli my dad and i cannot tahan the boredom le,

we went hm without my mum n sis... and nw i m here blogging...

i regret for not working todae loh....

it is reali dam boring.... n veri little ang pao...

i go work still got $98 dollors to earn siah...

kk, next yr, i find a betta job n earn $188...

btw,

HaPpY NeW YeAr evEryOnE!!!!!

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|9:12 PM|

Friday, February 16, 2007

[[~~~MY bEaUTy moMeNT~~~]]

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Tuesday, February 13, 2007

[[~~ignore diz post for once~~]]

1st outing- is leg chain
1st b'dae-neckacles/ wallet
1st anni- blazer frm padini
1st v'dae - 3 roses, bracelet/ bracelet
x/mas 2006- top/top
2nd b'dae- wallet
2nd v'dae- gold neckacles/mp4

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|12:00 AM|

Monday, February 12, 2007

[[*tired day at ChinaTown*]]

yesterdae work was tired... karnan wanted us to stay until 7.30. but i refused coz i have dated my xiang gong go chinatown shop. lol.... by the time i clock out, and go his hse take him to chinatown, all shops would have closed.

when we reach chinatown, it was very crowded. we could hardly walk through the crowd. everyone is like forcing the walk through... then go one stupid old man purposely knock onto my "you you".... dam pain lah... idiot man, dun let me noe ur name if not i tell kira to kill u!!!!

end up we had our dinner at Mac. DUN drink the LIMEADE there!!!! it is totally water onli.... is like ice water with a squeeze of lime wedge. i nv notice it until my xiang gong taste it... hahaha... maybe coz i m enjoying my fries so nv notice it..

we walk almost the whole of chinatown, everywhere is crowded... my xiang gong ask me a question, " chinatown onli during diz period then gt so many ppl de hor, the rest of daes is like flies flying ard onli hor?" lol, i then realise that human is realistic. onli when they are useful then ppl will appreciate it.... they onli think for themselves. ask urself, when is the last time u spare a thought for others???

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last nite i forgot to turn on alarm. diz morning i cant wake up.... cant go for lodging revision lec siah.... hahaha.... surprising is no1 call me.... thought they are to mit me de? hahaha... coz lan was same as me can't wake up.... lol..... lan, think i got ur "cant wake up" disease le..... later going for FM and FBO lec...

diz wk not working again... all muru's fault lah... he last nite then tell me my uniform is not ready while the rest is ready so i cant work diz wk... i initally bk Royal there mon, thur, fri. then sat sun new yr mah, i dn work for 1 yr loh, long nv spend new yr wif family le.BUT..... nw i cant work alreadi... sad rite... so many ppl onli my uniform is not readi...

i dun tink is coz of the size, coz doris is almost as size as me mah, y she can i cannot .... i had given them more than 2wks to order the uniform leh. last minute then tell me i cant work.... nw BBR there oso full le, i cant work le... die le lah, next mth got to pay fees again, where gt money to pay? diz end mth i onli got work 1half dae which is yesterdae loh... i dam ppissed lah.... haiz.....

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|11:04 AM|

Saturday, February 10, 2007

[[~Deepest in my HEArT~]]

todae wake up late.... so shiok... dun have to work todae.. todae is my free dae and i shld study as it is exam period. however, i dun feel like studying. wat had really happen to me??? why do i become like diz? aren't i used to be top students in sec and quite good in poly yr1 de mah?

i m really not sure what had really happen to me. i start to be lazy, no confidence, no motivation to do what ever i am doing. i even stop chionging my work for money already.... i juz want to stay at home and do nothing hoping that money will come in. diz happen to me after that incidents.... i start to lose confidence in myself and what ever do. i kept thinking that whatever i do is useless therefore i do nothing.

as for my family, i hardly spend time with them. whenever, i see any old man or old lady, i will think of my grandma and family members. my mind will tell me how much i miss them. but, whenever i get the chance to be with them, i did not treasure the time with them... what is hppening to me?? i had tried hard to change myself back to who am i.... but i can't .... the horror is still in th deepest part of my heart. it just can't be remove....

WHO AM I? I AM WHO?

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|11:31 AM|

Friday, February 09, 2007

[[1st blogging]]

yoz ..... diz is my 1st post... so fun... but hor, cant get to change the stupid blogskin... can anyone help me to change .. the stupid web dun work lah...

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|10:17 PM|