[[ Trapped Behind The Windows]]

Thursday, May 24, 2007

[[~HaPpY~]]

YEAH...... FINALY i got an position le.....
Easyway Travel has accepted me for my internship le....
and best is i work 5.5 daes wif much higher pay than my frenz.....
n they onli accept one student n i am the lucky one.....
so happy.....
todae i miss the business chinese and PRC culture cds tut coz of kk....
lunch break he put me aeroplane leave me alone n go makan wif wesley.....
PAM, I MISS U..... PLS COME BACK..... I NEED U AND UR CUTE FACES......
LIFE WITHOUT PAM, IS SOUR......
i start to feel stress le..... coz projets are getting more and more......
next week have BusEnt issue presentation,
DestPD issue presentation
and submition of OB interin report,
DestPD interin report, and
my business Chinese and PRC culture de compo writting......
so many to do and i am still dreaming..... time to wake up!!!

btw, i want to thanks xian for being part of my group member.....
she helped me alot......
and the most happy things is, she can help me stop the curse of "pang pang"....
and seriously, "pang pang" is veri scared of xian loh.... hahahahaha......
make me so happy now....
now she had a taste of wat i had last year!!!!
but compare to wat i have been thru last yr, hers is juz a seasame one loh.....
shall continue to torture her........lol......
so i muz sae.....
XIAN, I LOVE U WOH...... U ARE MY LOVER, MY IDOL, MY BELOVED, MY EVERYTHING!!!
But i muz also apologise to xian too......
grping wif me she muz have gone thru alot bah..... she did alot of things and i onli did peanuts woh.....
SORRY TO MAKE U SO STRESS WOH...... SORRY FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO CONTRIBUTE AS MUCH AS U CONTRIBUTED......
BTW, IF I GOT DO ANYTHING WRONG MUZ TELL ME OK...... I WILL CHANGE DE WOH....
OR I GOT GOOD THINGS MUZ ALSO TELL ME HUH....LOL..... LOVE U XIAN.....

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|1:22 PM|

Friday, May 18, 2007

[[~sTOrIES cONtINUES.......~]]

LIFES become very sweet for me.....

howvever, sweets are never lasting.....

soon we start to quarrel over some matters.....

because of the horror that happen to me during my 1st relationship,

i m very afraid that my bf will leave me for another gal.........

however, my horror has causes me to lose him once......

i tend to tie him very tight. . . .

i must see him every daes..... i nv let him have his own free time....

during this time, there's a chef named Andrew wanted to woo me......

i have been frank wif him......

i told him about Andrew.....

and i heard a bad news.......

there's a gal oso like him..........A CHINA GAL..............

at that point of time, i fear that he will have another gal....

finally, one dae, there's a call frm a gal to him......

he become very fishy n gone out to answer the call.....

he tok for a very long time and i bcm suspsious about it......

i went out n overheard their conversaion....

i heard something that i shldnt.....

they are planning to go out.....

when he finish his call, he came back to the room....

i ask him hu call and he bluff me is a guy colleague........

i got fed up and i question him.......

he got angry and ask y i tou ting him......and went out

i was lost......

and a thought appeared in my mind...........

i took his hp and see........

i saw tings that nv appeared in my hp............

he send sms to her......

and send those mushy msg that he nv send me.....

frm start till nw, he nv send me more than 200 sms....

and he send her that amt of sms to her within few weeks..........

my heart was scattered by his sms.........

i took down the number of that gal.......

i send sms to that gal.....

told her i m his gf.....ask her to leave him alone............

but she nv reply.......

i noe diz method onli happen in tv show only.........

but i juz dun noe wat to do.......

when he came back, i confront him about the sms tings........

he scold me for looking at him tings............

my heart broke more and i took my bag and

everyting that i left in his hse.... and go home.......

however i never go home, i sitted at the busstop down stairs

hoping that he will chasse after me........

however he nv.......

i cried......

i really dun noe wat to do........

i cant lose him......... i really love him......

i place the teddybear at his doorstep and hide at a corner to see him......

i sms him to take the bears.......

wat i saw is he is watching soccer....... he doesnt bothers abt wat happen....

i was hurt even more...

i waited at the void deck from 12pm to 8pm....

n i ask him to come down to tok....

i ask him y he did diz to me..... he said that i pushed him too much.....

i dun givee him freedom..... he was wrong to do that.....

i told him to choose either me or her...

he cant make a decision....

and i ask him to leave..... i dun wan to see him.......... WE BREAK UP......

he really left me alone n went up....... i was left alone at the void deck....

the void deck was veri dangerious... as there r always alot of indian workers.......

n he bear to leave me alone the whole nite.....

even the sky oso dun like me......

it rain heavliy......

the weather is juz like my heart.....

crying thru the nite......

my body feel cold but my heart feel even colder..........

he dun care abt me the whole nite and i waited there the whole nite.............

he onli sms me to go home once........

i went home onli in the morning 7am..........

my heart freeze..... n i wanted to patch wif him........

however, he confronted me y i sms that china gal.....

he sae i have caused him that he cant even b frenz wif that bitch le......

he needed some time to cool down.....

it hurt me even more.........

on that dae, my frenz frm BBR noes abt it, and they want to pei me go out makan......

they ask me wat i wan to eat, i told them i want to go PARISS.... whr he n that bitch work..

i got a table there .... he saw me n i saw him.......

tat dae was national dae.....

fireworks was nice to see, but my heart was not dare.....

juz nice, the table i was seated, is whr tat bitch serve......

all my frenz sae that bitch look so bitchy and she has a pig nose.....

she is reali much much digusting than me loh.....

she dun dare to look at me.....

nor my bf dare to look at me.....

love becm meaningless to me......

i slp wif my tears every nite......

until the dae we patch, i try very hard nt to look at his hp.....

coz i scared i will see any thing that will hurt me once again....

i live in fear wif him everydae.........

now, i no longer stick him like gao yao bu le....

i dun lov him that much le.......

coz i learnt that, man can nv be trusted.....

we gals shld nv put our whole heart to them.......

he no longer dote me that much, n he kept alot of things frm me.....

but i juz dun mind him keeping things from me........

he juz dun let me feel ke yi.......

dun let me find out anythings........

frenz ard me ask me to 4get abt him but i juz cant let go.......

i will still love him always........

3 daes more, it will be our 2nd anniversary le........

i m not sure we can celebrate hw many yrs..... but i onli noe i must treasure him..........

he will be in my mind n soul......

~dear dear, baby loves you always~

*Pls marry me!*

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|8:46 PM|

Friday, May 11, 2007

[[*~小公主背后的王子~*]]

sorry i have quite long never post le....
todae sure post abot the some story i have which make me feel very touched and it changes my life........
the story begins............

once upon a time, there was a gal, named Peizhen....

she had just finished her O'level and got a full time job at marina sq PARISS as a waitress..... she goes to work every day as usual... during this time, she has alot of boyfriends from international countries which include singapore, Nepal, Vietnam etc.....

on the other hand, there is a chef who works in the kitchen named Kok siong......

he do not have any girlfriend but he is wooing the hostess of the restaurant who is from china, SMALL RABBIT.... however, small rabbit do not like to start her relationship so fast..... kok siong have the idiot and disgusting fac e which peizhen hates.... as he always come to work with different color of hair or different pattern.... which make peizhen feel disgusted..... both of them never talk to each other for more than 20 words for the past 5mths until one dae............

whenever peizhen do anything wrong, the other chefs in the kitchen will sae “噢。。。。我跟阿雄讲“。。。。。at that time, i was very puzzled y they link me and him together......

finally i noe wat happen...... he ask his colleague to ask for my number from my frenz..... and i realise wat happen..... i gave the number to him and he called me on that nite....
actually at the time, i have abit feeling for him alreadi but i was still attactted to the vietnam guy hu i do not really love..... i started wif him is because he was there for me when i broke up wif the nepal guy and he cares alot for me..... but i began to scared of that vienam guy as he is like vwery......... 色。。。。he like always want that thing loh.....

from that nite, kok siong called me every nite and we chatted for almost 3-4hrs everynite....
love starts to developed...... after i tink ard 1wk, he finally ask me that question.....
he nv really directly pop it out.... and i forced him to sae it out and it was his 1st time asking that question although i am his 4th galfrenz.....

and i agreed..... and he encourage me to broke off wif that guy since i m so afraid of him and he is a highly dangerous guy.....
the next dae, i sit down wif that vietnam guy and i requestesd to break.... he was like a tiger which saw a piece of meat and cross over..... he refused to let me go.... i try alot of ways n finally he is gone..... but i felt very guilty towards him..... he was like so good to me n i treat him like diz.... i sit down there abnd cried.....

then kok siong called me and noe wat happen..... he rushed down and console me.....
the whole nite, we were there to feed the mosqito..... i can see the tired eyes of his but he bu fang xin to leave me alone.....

and we went home at ard 3am.....

then the journay of the two of us begins.......

we were like small little prince and princess.......

want to know what exciting story we have in between and the third party between us????

continue to see my next post............

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|6:49 PM|