[[ Trapped Behind The Windows]]

Monday, August 31, 2009

[[~*The fundamentals of love*~]]

Think back to the day when you first laid eyes on her. You found yourself charmed by the way she talks, the way she dresses herself to show off her best features and the way she embraces life with her laughter. It seemed as if a mysterious "chemistry effect" has suddenly developed to draw you closer to her.

You two then began to meet regularly, and you discover more things that you admire about her. Her clever ideas, her healthy values and the way she stands up for you when others doubt you. You find yourself thinking of her not just as a normal friend, but a very good friend. It is often during this period that a boy and a gal will start thinking of bringing their friendship to another level. After all, the kind of wonderful experience you have between each other can only become even better if it develops into a romantic relationship. In other words, the feeling is really unique - no one else seems able to replace her in your heart. So both of you agree to go steady and work even harder on the relationship. You "graduate" to become a couple, and are the envy of the sea of singles.

When You Forget The Fundamentals

However, at some point in your relationship, you forgot how it all began. You start to take your partner for granted. Why can't she laugh in a more ladylike manner? Why doesn't she dress herself more trendily? Why must she assert her views and point out your silly mistakes? Is she really the one for you?

To be fair to yourself and to her, take some time to reflect on your "love memory". The "love memory" contains all the reasons that you fell in love with her right from Day One. It contains rarely accessed snippets of how your life has changed since meeting and loving her. Pre-steady days, did you heap compliments on her for the brave way she spoke her mind on bullies and snobs? You probably did. Did you like her unusual fashion sense that makes her stand out from the crowd? Right-o. So why are you criticising or finding fault with her now that she is your girlfriend? Because you have forgotten the fundamentals of love, like so many of us. You have forgotten the reasons you admired her during the friendship phase. Instead, once you went steady, you put your "love memory" in cold storage. As her boyfriend, you take up a new set of demands and expectations about her. These new ideas are not necessarily better; they could put your relationship at risk.

The Secret Of Strong Relationships

A healthy relationship, like learning to walk properly, ollows a step-by-step development. You can't possibly become part of a couple if you aren't friends in the first place. Ok, I know some of us break the rule and plunge straight into whirlwind courtship, but how many of those couples can go the distance? Couplehood works well when there is something you like about her (and vice versa), and I'm not referring to merely the physical aspects. So whenever your relationship hits a rocky path, don't give up without checking on your "love memory". Rediscover the reasons why you fell in love with her, and watch your relationship flourish with a newfound vigour. "Follow the rule of love and enjoy it, as loving someone is a wonderful and sweet experience."

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|9:15 PM|

Friday, August 21, 2009

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if given a choice, will you want to go back to the past or go to the future?
have you ever thought of this question?

i've never ask myself this before.. until someone asked me...
i think for very long but no matter what answer i give,
it will never fulfill my wish...
if i were given a choice,
i really hope i can go back to the past...
the time when i just gradate from secondary,
and just know him...that is the time im the happiest...
and i hope time will stop from there....
if this is too much to ask for,
then i hope to go back to those daes when im just a little kid...

i uses to be my family's smile...
i bring smiles to each and everyone of them...
no matter how hard our financial is,
we will all stay together and face it together...
my mum and dad are very proud of me....
.i scored in school's exam,
work veri hard to earn my own pocket money...
my mum always told me tat they never worry for me before...
she always told my aunts that
"my ah zhen veri guai one, i dun nid to worry for her one".

however, they start to worry for me after i broke up with him...
my mum cried in front of me...
holding on to my hand and told me these...
my heart is really pain when i heard these...
i really dun wanna to make them worry one,
but i just cant help to become who i am today...
even my sis, she is also very worried for me...
she worried till she almost jump down from 9storey...

i used to be a cheerful gal...
im like a clown in class, a chatterbox at home...
but now, i no longer have that feel anymore...
my life now is just work eat slp work eat slp....
nothing else... even on my off daes, i just stay at home...
not wanting to go out...

frankly speaking,
i dont have any close frenz or rather best frenz...
i dun belong to any group of frenz...
i've no frenz... ever since pri sch till poly,
im just a student in the class...
yes, ppl can sae arent i ur frenz etc??
but do u really understand me? know my everything??
am i the 1st person u tot of whenever u nid console?
or im just a frenz who u can goes out, makan together?

im a big failure in everything...
a big failure at home....
a big failure in studies...
a big big faliure in relationships....
a big failure in frenzship....
IM A BIG BIG BIG FAILURE!!
A TOTAL FAILURE!!!

if one dae i pass away,
who will go to my funeral?
is it alot?? i dun noe...
but i noe tat my family will definely be there...

thanks daddy
for working so hard to support us even thu u can enjoy ur retirement but u didnt.

thanks mummy
for not leaving us in this world and ask doc to let u go home coz we r sching...

thanks sis
for lending me ur shoulder to cry...

thanks bro
for taking over my place to cheer daddy n mummy up...

thanks my frens from all over
for filling my life with some colours...

thanks ah siong
for telling me the truth to stop me from loving u more...

im just someone who are not worth wasting time on~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|10:12 PM|

[[~rAiNy DaEs~]]

juz came back from driving lessons...

haiz..

think im sux at driving...

todae my instructor angry le...

but he nv scold me....

he use another soft way to make me scared....

"Sorry, teacher!!! i didnt mean to do it de...

hope u will not be angry...

i'll be more serious....dun angry ok!!!!"

oh ya, todae is rainy dae!!!

i was on the road when the rain was like dam heavy!!!

i cant even see the road in front loh....

n those idiot inconsiderate drivers juz drove past me

dam fast and causes the flooded area water all splash onto my windscreen...

at that few sec, i was blinded by the water....

lucky my beloved instructor is there...

n hor, got one motorist turned along the traffic light, and fall leh...

i was behind him... wanted to get out of car n help him de,

but in the end nv... coz if like this, i will caused traffic jam behind..

hope he is ok....

Finally, things between ZQ n XQ hav settled already...

haha.... reali got terrible headache when i see their blog n fb...

hahaha....

oh ya, ytd i went for a job interview...

as an outlet manager in Coffee bean...

the interviewer is a nice lady....

however, the pay offered was not wat i expected...

n coz i'll be going PT uni next yr, when decreased my chance...

coz they wanted a mgr tat can work overtime when needed,

especially when now they are veri shorthanded...

wat to do.... i can onli WAIT for their call for 2nd interview wif their district mgr loh..

WAIT~~WAIT~~WAIT~~

today is my last dae of leave le... tml hav to go back work le....

SIANZZZZ....

9daes of leave seems so short.... how i wish i can on leave for 9months..

La~~~La~~~La~~~

back to hell training le~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|6:05 PM|

Saturday, August 15, 2009

[[~caR AcCidEnt~]]

ytd went for driving lesson...

however, i almost cant come back and blog...

coz i almost kanna accident while driving ytd...

qi shi hor, i oso dun realli remb wat happen tat time coz im blank at tat time...

i onli noe when tat happen, i wanna brake but my instructor shout at me

n ask me to press the gas...dun brake...

lucky he wake me up, if not i think im like floating ard my hse now le...LOL...

it reali scared the shit out of me n my instructor loh...

he first time shout at me... but after that, he calm me down....

thanks mr chia.... i reali enjoy ur coaching.... i'll be more serious on my next lesson...

btw, i've discussed with my dad regarding my uni stuff....

i've decided to take up Murdoch Uni le...

but now hav to wait till my sis come back from SHA, n discuss on the payment matters...

YEAH!!!! tml going geylang makan DIM SUM woh...

it's a mini farewell dinner for alex de... he will be leaving us soon...

so sad!!! will miss him de...

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|7:13 PM|

Thursday, August 13, 2009

[[~dRiVinG+UnI~]]

hey hey hey!!!!

pai seh so long never update... coz lazy n tired!!!

just came back from my driving lessons!!

todae is my 3th n 4th lesson...

hmm... i loves driving now..hehehe...

and im lucky that i've got a nice n funny instructor...

he's Mr Alex Chia (0381).

he is a very nice guy with no temper...

always joke around with me to calm me down...

hehehehe.... todae i no longer drving ard the circuit but out to the "battLE hiLL".

everything will fine but onli ting is i tend to go to another lane while change gear..

n my instructor will faster pull me back n sae

"AN LAH..... im here... dun worry lah...

the most later u take stearing wheel ,

i take handbrake back to driving centre onli mah.."

then if i stop too near the car in front, he will add on

"u take additional wheel back onli mah".

hahaha.... i feel safe when he is around... so i will purposely book the daes n time that he teach.

btw, i start on leave again starting from todae....

so i will chiong my driving lessons during these time. Coz my P.T is on 10OCT09.

i hope i can pass my test... coz if nt i will hav to retake FTT coz it will expire diz DEC.

after driving lesson, went to murdoch Uni as bra basah.

i went there to find out more abt the courses n fee etc.

after discussing wif jennifer, im reali interested in joining Murdoch instead of UniSIM.

however, Murdoch does not have gov. grant have Exemption and is juz beside my hotel

while UniSIM have gov grant of 40% but no exemption at all plus is dam dam far from my hse.

headache lah.... i reali dun noe wat to do siah.... hw ah???

any suggestions?

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|7:25 PM|