[[ Trapped Behind The Windows]]

Friday, August 21, 2009

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if given a choice, will you want to go back to the past or go to the future?
have you ever thought of this question?

i've never ask myself this before.. until someone asked me...
i think for very long but no matter what answer i give,
it will never fulfill my wish...
if i were given a choice,
i really hope i can go back to the past...
the time when i just gradate from secondary,
and just know him...that is the time im the happiest...
and i hope time will stop from there....
if this is too much to ask for,
then i hope to go back to those daes when im just a little kid...

i uses to be my family's smile...
i bring smiles to each and everyone of them...
no matter how hard our financial is,
we will all stay together and face it together...
my mum and dad are very proud of me....
.i scored in school's exam,
work veri hard to earn my own pocket money...
my mum always told me tat they never worry for me before...
she always told my aunts that
"my ah zhen veri guai one, i dun nid to worry for her one".

however, they start to worry for me after i broke up with him...
my mum cried in front of me...
holding on to my hand and told me these...
my heart is really pain when i heard these...
i really dun wanna to make them worry one,
but i just cant help to become who i am today...
even my sis, she is also very worried for me...
she worried till she almost jump down from 9storey...

i used to be a cheerful gal...
im like a clown in class, a chatterbox at home...
but now, i no longer have that feel anymore...
my life now is just work eat slp work eat slp....
nothing else... even on my off daes, i just stay at home...
not wanting to go out...

frankly speaking,
i dont have any close frenz or rather best frenz...
i dun belong to any group of frenz...
i've no frenz... ever since pri sch till poly,
im just a student in the class...
yes, ppl can sae arent i ur frenz etc??
but do u really understand me? know my everything??
am i the 1st person u tot of whenever u nid console?
or im just a frenz who u can goes out, makan together?

im a big failure in everything...
a big failure at home....
a big failure in studies...
a big big faliure in relationships....
a big failure in frenzship....
IM A BIG BIG BIG FAILURE!!
A TOTAL FAILURE!!!

if one dae i pass away,
who will go to my funeral?
is it alot?? i dun noe...
but i noe tat my family will definely be there...

thanks daddy
for working so hard to support us even thu u can enjoy ur retirement but u didnt.

thanks mummy
for not leaving us in this world and ask doc to let u go home coz we r sching...

thanks sis
for lending me ur shoulder to cry...

thanks bro
for taking over my place to cheer daddy n mummy up...

thanks my frens from all over
for filling my life with some colours...

thanks ah siong
for telling me the truth to stop me from loving u more...

im just someone who are not worth wasting time on~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|10:12 PM|

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