[[ Trapped Behind The Windows]]

Thursday, March 24, 2011

[[~~~A Lost Child~~~]]

have you ever wonder what you want or what you need?
I've been through alot throughout my 23 years...
hwever, till now, i still do not know what i really wan, what i really need...
i always move along with people around me and never had my own route~~~~
i care alot on what others will think of me and what they say of me....
if they do not like this, i will change.... even to those Hi-bye frenz....
i always give up the chance to be better just because i cant let go....
when i wanted to grab the chance, it had slipped off my hands...
now, i have a chance to move to a higher place, but im here stressing myself with it...
i gt an offer at the IM as VIP Host. But im wasnt happy at all...

reasons wanna join VIP Host are:
1) Pay are much higher than being a DLR.
2) 2 off daes per week with 9hrs shift
3) Get to learn lots of things like the admin stuffs.
4) it will allow me to have more job opportunity outside if i were to resign
5) able to apply what ive learn in school...

wanna stay coz:
1) i have fallen in love with Casino Table Games... i love wat im doing rite now
2) i get my perm morning which i will not be able to get over at IM
3) able to continue my studies coz i have wasted 1.5yrs of time n $$$ liao....
4) i really wanna get a degree cert to make them proud...
5) i have lots of nice colleagues around me right now...
6) ive gt freedom to do things i wanna which include Grooming
7) my wish of learning new games and promotions have not fulfill

really, if im one who will let go easily, i will juz go for it... but now, im lost...
ive lost my sense of direction and i reali dun noe how and what shld i do...
i m a weak person.... im not as strong as what u all think....
i cant decide on my own things, cant bear to let go of old things, cant make up my mind~~~
whenever im stress or i cant handle certain things, i will do nothing and cry to myself....
coz i dun noe wat to do.... i onli noe hw to cry... just like now, such a small thing i cant decide on wat to do, which route to walk.... onli thing that i do now is to cry...and nothing else...
why am i so useless??? why cant i be as strong like wat others do ...
im really lost.... i cant think anymore.... who can help me???

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|9:24 PM|

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. PhoeBe Lim
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