~~wILL y0U eVeR n0tIce Me~~

2011-12-05T20:11:00.002+08:00

Am i ur biological daugther!?!?! Why was i treated like a shit....
Sometimes i really wonder if i was being adopted by you...
you are being so unfair to me....
treat ur son as precious.... Gives him watever he wan...
Never let him suffer.... no housework for him.... MOney.....
Even if he's not working, he will never be empty wallet...
doesnt want work you dun care...
wat was my life when im having the same age as him....
i've got no friends.... no life.... no childhood memories....
all i can remb is WORK WORK and WORK....
have you ever wonder how hard ive suffer in school.....
NO....You Never know.... COz u dun care abt me.... but onli ur SOn!
TO u.... Maybe im juz a piece of shit.....

I have started to hate going home.... hate steping out of my room..... I hate myself.... I hate this world!!!!!!!!!!

2011-09-14T22:33:00.001+08:00

心好痛~~~
真的很痛！
你在哪里？
我真的好想你~~~~

2011-09-12T13:40:00.001+08:00

我累了。真的累了~~~~

~A Lost Child~

2011-03-24T21:24:00.004+08:00

have you ever wonder what you want or what you need?
I've been through alot throughout my 23 years...
hwever, till now, i still do not know what i really wan, what i really need...
i always move along with people around me and never had my own route~~~~
i care alot on what others will think of me and what they say of me....
if they do not like this, i will change.... even to those Hi-bye frenz....
i always give up the chance to be better just because i cant let go....
when i wanted to grab the chance, it had slipped off my hands...
now, i have a chance to move to a higher place, but im here stressing myself with it...
i gt an offer at the IM as VIP Host. But im wasnt happy at all...

reasons wanna join VIP Host are:
1) Pay are much higher than being a DLR.
2) 2 off daes per week with 9hrs shift
3) Get to learn lots of things like the admin stuffs.
4) it will allow me to have more job opportunity outside if i were to resign
5) able to apply what ive learn in school...

wanna stay coz:
1) i have fallen in love with Casino Table Games... i love wat im doing rite now
2) i get my perm morning which i will not be able to get over at IM
3) able to continue my studies coz i have wasted 1.5yrs of time n $$$ liao....
4) i really wanna get a degree cert to make them proud...
5) i have lots of nice colleagues around me right now...
6) ive gt freedom to do things i wanna which include Grooming
7) my wish of learning new games and promotions have not fulfill

really, if im one who will let go easily, i will juz go for it... but now, im lost...
ive lost my sense of direction and i reali dun noe how and what shld i do...
i m a weak person.... im not as strong as what u all think....
i cant decide on my own things, cant bear to let go of old things, cant make up my mind~~~
whenever im stress or i cant handle certain things, i will do nothing and cry to myself....
coz i dun noe wat to do.... i onli noe hw to cry... just like now, such a small thing i cant decide on wat to do, which route to walk.... onli thing that i do now is to cry...and nothing else...
why am i so useless??? why cant i be as strong like wat others do ...
im really lost.... i cant think anymore.... who can help me???

女人心~~~

2011-02-20T20:18:00.001+08:00

生活中沒有了你總是不知自己再做些什麼

少了一點叮嚀一個微笑一個擁抱

房間裡四處可見你的東西但主人已離去

懷念床枕間有你熟悉的味道如今已煙消雲散

放不下的是對你的情留不住的是你的心

我不是個完美情人無法讓你感到安全以致讓你離去

是我不懂男人的心以為我已付出所有

讓你能真心感受原來一切都是自以為

聽到了你有了新戀情除了祝福還能再說什麼

你我的曾經留在記憶裡塵封有你相伴的日子都是感激

我們沒有聯絡是因為不知如何面對對方

聽我說聲寧作最熟悉的陌生人也別作敵人好嗎

感情的世界裡我們都盡了力沒有誰對誰錯

我以最真心的祝福

希望你能得到幸福

~爱-一种说不出的感觉~

2010-12-31T17:56:00.001+08:00

愛的感覺，總是在一開始時很甜蜜。總覺得有一個人陪，有一個人幫你分擔，你終於不再孤單了，至少有個人想著你，戀著你。不論做什麼事情，只要在一起，就是好的。但是慢慢的隨著彼此的認識加深，你開始發現了對方的缺點，於是問題一個接一個的發生，你開始累，你開始煩，甚至想要逃避。有人說愛情就像撿石頭，總想撿到一個適合自己的，可我們又如何知道什麼時候能夠撿到呢？

其實愛情就像磨石子一樣，或許剛撿到的時候你不是那麼滿意，但是記住人是有彈性的，很多事情是可以改變的。只要你有心，有勇氣，與其到處去撿未知的石頭，還不如好好的將自己已經擁有的石頭磨亮，過程可能很難，但每次摩擦都會有愛情火花的碰撞，每次摩擦都會使愛情更加香醇。很多人以為是因為感情淡了，所以才會變得懶惰。錯，其實是人先被惰性徵服，所以感情才會淡的。其實愛恨往往只是我們一念之間，愛不僅要懂得寬容，更要及時。很多事情可能只在於我們心情的轉變罷了。

我們總說，我要找一個自己很愛很愛的人才會談戀愛，但當有人問你怎樣才算很愛很愛的時候，你卻無法回答，因為你自己也不知道。我們總是以為，我們會找到一個自己很愛很愛的人，可是當青春不再，我們猛然回首時才會發現自己曾經是多麼的天真。其實很愛很愛的感覺是要在一起經歷了許多事情之後才會產生的，或許每個人都希望找到自己心目中百分百的伴侶。當愛一個人的時候，愛到八分絕對剛剛好所有的希望和期待都只是七八分，剩下的兩三分用來愛自己。如果你還繼續愛的更多，很可能會給對方沉重的壓力，讓彼此喘不過氣來，完全喪失了愛情的樂趣。所以，喝酒不要超過六分醉；吃飯不要超過氣分飽；愛一個人不要超過八分。愛一個人，要瞭解，也要開解；要道歉，也要道謝；要體貼，也要體諒；是接受，而不是忍受；是寬容，而不是縱容；是支持，而不是支配；是慰問，而不是質問；是傾訴，而不是控訴；是難忘，而不是遺忘。不要輕易說愛，許下的諾言就是欠下的債；也不要輕易說不愛，可能真愛會被我們關在門外~

2010-12-22T19:10:00.000+08:00

明明很想哭，卻還在笑。
明明很在乎，卻裝作無所謂。
明明很想留下，卻堅定的說要離開。
明明很痛苦，卻偏偏說自己很幸福。
明明忘不掉，卻說已經忘了。
明明放不下，卻說他是他，我是我。
明明捨不得，卻說我已經受夠了。
明明說的是違心的假話，卻說那是自己的真心話。
明明眼淚都快溢出眼眶，卻高昂著頭。
明明已經無法挽回，卻依舊執著。
明明知道自己很受傷，卻說你不必覺得欠我的。
明明這樣「偽裝」著很累，卻還得依舊......

為的只是隱藏起自己的脆弱，即使很難過，也會裝的無所謂，
只是不願別人看見自己的傷口，不想讓自己周圍的人但心，不想讓別人同情自己，
只想在心底獨自承受，雖然心疼的難以呼吸，卻笑著告訴所有人「我沒事的！」 ,
然後靜下來時，自己便笑話自己，何必把自己偽裝的那麼堅強?
好像自己可以承受所有的苦難，這好累......好累......
即使是偽裝，即使很累，只為了不讓蓄積於眼底的淚水流下。那是蘊藏在眼底的冰冷，一旦溫熱便會洶湧，沖毀我久築的防堤......
只為這一個理由，已足夠。

偽裝堅強，只為不讓脆弱有機可乘，只為可以一個人在晚上走夜路也不害怕......
呵，扯開嘴角的微笑並不是那麼容易。
你堅強的背後會有一個聲音：累不累？可已無路可退。
一個人的夜晚，才會最真實吧？！

有時候，我會累會想停下來，去觀望路邊的風景，
有時候，我會為自己找一個藉口，讓自己停留； ,
我想為自己找一個藉口，一個讓自己停下來的藉口…

2010-12-22T18:57:00.001+08:00

第一眼的你早已在我心中繞下深深的印痕，
或許我不是你最後的避風港早已決定的事實，
但是我早已經習慣有你的世界，
早安，你好。
晚安，快睡。
現在雨好大可以幫我送傘來嘛?嗯。
你在哪，過來找我?嗯。

曾經以為這是一個無窮的迴圈，
但現在已不在是。
曾經認為天上的星星是為我們譜出的夜空，
但現在已不在是。
曾經以為夜晚的微風是為我們哼著安眠曲，
現在已經不在是。
曾經以為夕陽的光是畫下我們共同的背景，
現在已經不在是。
曾經以為細雨是為我們建立起關係的漣的交集，
現在已經不在是。

現在只剩你的印痕在我心中，
曾天真的覺得時間會洗刷一切的記憶，
會抹去傷痛留下的印痕，
會逐漸淡忘我對你的依賴，
但似乎不是這麼順利。

在沒有你的世界我是孤獨的，
在沒有你的世界我選擇一個人好好活下去。
在沒有你的世界我利用忙碌淡忘我對你的感情。
在沒有你的世界我逃避去面對你的事務。
在沒有你的世界我用微笑掩飾我心中的這股淡淡的哀傷。

我已經放棄強迫自己遺忘對你的感覺，
所以你永遠在我心中留下了你的位置，
或許這輩子在我心中座位置的只有你，
或許在未來的日子裡我必須獨自面對一切。

你雖然已經不在我身邊，
我已經沒辦法再好好照顧你，
天氣冷記得多穿衣服，
夜深了不要太晚睡，
吃個飯不要再挑食了，
約時間不要再遲到，不是每個人都有好脾氣等你。
好多好多...要好好注意自己。

我能做的只有給你我的祝福。
你永遠有一個避風港在你已遺忘的角落，默默的為你祝福。

Emo AGain~~~

2010-11-30T18:56:00.003+08:00

I looked outside my window, up in the sky, there are clouds. In my eyes, those clouds form an image of you...I blink my eyes once and you disappeared. I raised my hand towards those clouds, wishing that the image of you will appear again, but it never happen....Tears roll down my eyes as I walk away from the window.

You are so close to me, yet so far away from me~~~~~

I wanted to take out Joker, all black hearts, Queen of Red Hearts & King of Red hearts from the deck of poker cards you have on the table. I am willing to be a joker to make you laugh when you are down. Life without you tends to be full of darkness just like the black hearts. I really hope you can be my King of Hearts.

Whenever there is King, there will be a Queen and I wish to be that Queen~~~

人的一生會遇到四個人.第一個是自己,第二個是你最愛的人，第三個是最愛你的人，第四個是共度一生的人.首先會遇到你最愛的人，然後體會到愛的感覺；然後亦了解被愛的感覺，才能發現最愛你的人；才會知道什麼是你需要的，但很悲哀的，在現實生活中，這三個人通常不是同一個人；你最愛的，往往沒有選擇你；最愛你的，往往不是你最愛的；而最長久的，偏偏不是你最愛也不是最愛你的，只是在最適合的時間出現的那個人。

若係你~會如何選擇呢?

以前..只要你跟我説ー句''不要走''.我真的願意永遠留在你身旁. 但是...現在的我, 明白了無論我怎樣心碎..我仍然能當作小事... 這並不代表我無感覺...只是説明了..你巳經完全傷我傷得麻ホ了.... 每次都告訴自己不要去想妳.也不要去喜歡妳.甚至不要去愛上妳.然而每一個人都在期待著自己想要的人.也期待下一個人能夠讓自己得到幸福.

幾米說: 當你喜歡我的時候，我不喜歡你，當你愛上我的時候，我喜歡上你，當你離開我的時候，我卻愛上你，是你走得太快，還是我跟不上你的腳步，我們錯過了諾亞方舟，錯過了泰坦尼克號，錯過了一切的驚險與不驚險，我們還要繼續錯過.............

但是，........

2010-11-09T16:57:00.002+08:00

別把犯賤當真愛。一個人作踐自己來取悅你的時候，千萬不要因此感動。幾米說: 當你喜歡我的時候，我不喜歡你，當你愛上我的時候，我喜歡上你，當你離開我的時候，我卻愛上你，是你走得太快，還是我跟不上你的腳步，我們錯過了諾亞方舟，錯過了泰坦尼克號，錯過了一切的驚險與不驚險，我們還要繼續錯過.............但是，請允許我說這樣自私的話..多年後，你若未聚．我還未嫁．那．我們能不能在一起??

2010-10-17T23:33:00.003+08:00

who can i still trust in this world???

even you betrayed me....

i hate it...

We can never trust anyone in this world not even ur loves one....

shall continue to pretend i dun noe anything.....

but

I SWEAR!!!!

FROM NOW ON,

I WILL NOT SAY ANYTHING OUT~~~~

I MEAN IT!!!!

2010-09-07T18:07:00.001+08:00

如果我从没遇见你，如果我从没爱上你，如果我一开始没坚信，也许。。。我就不会是现在的这个自己。情断了，绑不住。试着放手，走与不走，留与不留，我不想懂。断了联络，断了思念，最后的希望已灰飞烟灭。明知你心里没有我，也永远走不动做不到你想要的那个，却不由自主让你看到最真实的我，掩藏住受伤的我。当一切都回不去了，当我决定要走，你才明白冷落了我。我要的不多，你却没给我。如果爱不曾来过，如果梦不曾碎过，如果心不曾疼过，那么我是否是你认识的我？不要再折磨我，我的心已被割破，流尽的不是血，而是爱你的错！心已疲倦。痛吗？不懂！擦去脸上的泪水，却带不走心中痛楚的感觉。每到深夜人静，我才倍感寂寞心酸。孤单的人心易碎，总是看到别人双双对对才感觉一个人好孤单！！当依靠的肩膀不在，当我的眼泪流干，当我决定放手，我的心已不在，我难过的时候你在哪里？一句抱歉就能把空白代替？
如果忽远忽近的洒脱。。是你要的自由。。那我宁愿一个人生活。。

2010-08-18T23:30:00.002+08:00

放手吧！如果真的不能拥有。。。。。

对方的快乐，就是自己最大的安慰。。。

我爱你，所以我放手。。。。。

虽然很痛很痛，我还是放手，应为我要让你快乐，让你幸福。

我相信她一定可以帮我带给你我所不能给与你的一切一切。。。。

你和她一定能快乐。。。。。

2010-08-13T22:28:00.002+08:00

痛哭了一晚，
我始终无法放下。。。
我真的好傻。。。
說了再見之后才發現再也
見不到你的身影
听不到你的声音
收不到你的信息
我假裝過去不重要卻發現自己辦不到。
心碎了一地撿不回從前的心跳~~~
我凭什么？凭什么？？？
也许一开始就只是我一相情愿，才会搞到现在的下场。。。
我從來都不說不,不是因為我願意,是因為我喜欢你~~
我從來都不生氣,不是因為我沒有脾氣,是因為我喜欢你~~
我從來都不哭,不是因為我沒有眼淚,是因為我喜欢你~~
我从不要求什么，不是因为我不需要，是因为我喜欢你~~
我只希望你能多看我一眼，这样就足够了~~~
可是我想这是不可能的，因为你心中已有另一个她。。。
对不起，打扰你~~~
不过我说的醉话都是真心话。。。

2010-07-25T15:43:00.002+08:00

我真的好傻！明明知道是不可能的，可是好一头灾进去。

为什么你要在我不想你的时候又再一次出现？
为什么你的身边会有另一个他？
为什么我会喜欢上你？
为什么你要让我遇见你？
为什么你要告诉我那些？

为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么？

FOR K.G papa

2010-07-20T17:50:00.003+08:00

K papa,

i know u will read my blog de. so use this to talk to u bah.

Seriously we really need to talk.

reasons for being angry with you not because u accused me of adding ur frenz in FB, but is that you kept thinking that my FB status are all for XXXX. but in fact, i've got over him liao.... so it was not for him but someone else. i angry coz u choose not to believe wat ive told u.... the trust between us is not there anymore. . . im really disappointed...

I know u noe alot of my things and cares alot for me.... i really appreciate it.... sometimes im touched too... so i treasure u alot.... thanks for doting me... n i hope after today, we will be the same as before ok????

there are alot of times i wanted to start talking to u de.... but dun noe why everytime i walk towards u, i just walk away.... dun dare to start the conversation. remember on SUN u were at pit 220? i was at pit 208, i can go break by another exit de, but i go one big round to 220 there.... coz i noe u are there n wanna to tok to u, but in the end never....

and hor, y u remove ur relationship (as my father) wif u??? 你要跟我脱离父女关系是不是？？？think is because u angry with me bah... 你不要我了吗？我们和好好吗？？？

2010-07-15T20:25:00.001+08:00

你愿意做我一辈子的好朋友

还是勇敢的做我一次的男朋友？

2010-07-11T11:13:00.001+08:00

*有本事抛弃别人，就要有本事扛起被抛弃的痛苦*

2010-07-09T19:46:00.000+08:00

ღ放手，因为我要让你快乐，让你幸福ღ

~一个人生活~

2010-07-03T18:32:00.000+08:00

2010-06-23T21:49:00.000+08:00

今天你微笑了吗？

人的内心，往往是最好守秘密的地方，但也是最容易攻破的地方。
每当你往出窗外时的微笑，会有一次是因为我吗？
从你口中的每一句话，全都是你心里所想的吗？

你愿意把你心里的秘密都告诉我吗？
没有任何人会懂你的心事，因为你从不跟任何人说。。
伤害自己，是因为没人关心你？还是因为你要人关心？

每晚，在你睡觉时，你的心是在想着谁？而他又会不会知道呢？
好想好想有个人陪我，一起感受恋爱的滋味。。

人的心，就像被水遮盖着，水落时，就可以看得更清楚，可能不是我想的，但至少我也已经知道了。。

当爱离去时，我们还会记得什么？

2010-06-21T01:15:00.001+08:00

~~~被爱的人是幸福的，可是爱一个不爱你的人却是痛苦的~~~

~eXpiRY dAtE oN loVe aNd LifE~

2010-06-16T01:22:00.001+08:00

You will realized its existence, following up closely to see if the date is near. Upon reaching, you will try your best to use it. All these effort, prevents it from being wasted. All these monitoring, prevents it from going bad. All these, are the effects of an expiry date on a certain food can.

If you can remember clearly, humans are very sensitive towards expiry date.
“ Hey, the milk you bought expired yesterday! ”
“ Better finish up the mixed fruit cans before it expires..”

Truth is, not only food comes with an expiry. Many things in life too comes with a special date where the end is the end. Things like product warranty, library books, video rental. Their sole purpose is of course, act as a painful reminder that some things just doesn’t belong to you.

Sometimes you wonder, does life has an expiry date? Does love has? Well it all depends on your availability to secure. Every organs in our body will spoil one day if we do not maintain it. Every relationship will part its way if they never maintain it. Life deteriorates through time.

The expiry date for love often seems infinite when a relationship starts. Couples will do the lovely things together, experience for the first time hope in living. Then with time, practical things begin to creep in. Time, money, work, family… slowly begs for attention. Friends soon becomes a factor for lesser meetings, credit debts mount the letterbox and outings became less grand. The lengthy meetings and long working hours soon caught up with your youthful mentality. With every aspect… life soon becomes very tiring.

You yearn for a holiday, yet end up arguing over where to go. Arguing will become part of your life together. Maybe it will lead to the last chapter of your love story. The love has expired…

And you ask yourself what happens after a certain thing expires? Do we always discard it away or do we neglect it’s existence? I believe there’s an expiry date in everything for if there’s a beginning, there will be an end.

What matter most is the times that were spent among this period. Love will expired one day but memories will not. Hopefully it is this that keeps us going on till the day when we are all expired.

~Quoted frm journalof life~

2010-06-16T01:16:00.001+08:00

Life still goes on~~~~

im happy even without you~~~~

2010-05-04T23:26:00.003+08:00

我的心很乱。。。
不知道自己到底要什么
有人问我，
如果时间能到流，你还会这样做吗？
我可以很大声的回答他， “我会”。
可能你会觉得我很傻。。。
但是，这是我不能控制的。。。

你恋爱过吗？
你曾被伤害过吗？
如果你没被爱伤害过，那我觉得你不曾恋爱过吧。。。
如果两个人之间的爱情不能轰轰烈烈的，那回忆时也没什么好留恋的吧。

浪漫的爱情可以是一段很平凡的相遇。。。
不一定要天天见面。。。
只要心里有对方就行了。。。

你心里还有我吗？？？？

~iF 0nLy~

2010-04-15T01:06:00.002+08:00

if only i have been more firm, i wun be suffering now....

if only i have rejected it, i will be enjoying now....

sometimes i reali dun noe wat im doing....

i always regret things after i have done it....

if onli i know wat will the if only be, i will not be stressed now...

im lost....

im really veri lost now....

there's nothing i can do now....

but to accept the fact that im like diz now....

financial, work, schools are pressing me veri hard....

i could hardly breathe....

and now, there's lots of conflict at work....

the worst part of it is the conflict are backstabbers.

this sae dun like diz, tat sae dun like tat, but in front of them machiam good frenz like diz....

I HATE THESE!!!! i reali hate it....

from a group of 10, reduced to 5 and now ended up with 3....

why must ppl look at others with colour specs just by listening to others gossipping....

does they know the real reasons behind it????

if they dun noe, y are they doing all these.....

time really will reveal one's true colour....

and i have seen it......

im down....

DAM DAM DOWN!!!!!!

I HATE THIS FEELING......

I HATE BEING BACKSTABBED.....

I HATE BEING BROKE.....

I HATE EVERYTHING.....

most importantly.....

I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!

2010-04-06T12:38:00.002+08:00

it's time for me to wake up le....

i have been living in this dream for the past one month.....

everything is just a dream....

i shouldnt have started this dream....

knowing that this dream will not last, but still i wanted to continue to dream....

in the end, the one cant walk out from the dream is myself...

im not sure if i am able to face him today,

but one thing for sure is i will be normal today...

i dont know if it is an act or real....

dont ask me...

coz i myself dun noe which is which...

i have lost my ability to diff. real n fake....

~L0sT~

2010-04-05T01:56:00.003+08:00

What should i do??

What have i done?

What will you do??

Im lost.....

SOmetimes, we will never be able to get back the same amount of love we have given out.....

so i shouldnt be asking more.....

i believe, diz is the max i can get.....

~爱情是不能勉强的~

2010-03-26T10:44:00.002+08:00

this two days im really happy.
i believe everyone should know why.
but today onwards, im back to single again liao.
im so sorry to disappoint you guys again.
things happen too fast and ended too fast le..
yes, i may be hurt and sad, but still i have to accept the fact.

Mr XXXX,

i know you are feeling guilty towards me. But i hope you are fine. in fact, im actually quite shocked to hear that although i expected it to happen. maybe becasue it ended so fast liao. you still remember i said in msn, "later todae u stead with me, tml u break up with me" and u promised it wun happen. tat's why im surprised tat indeed it happen. after you told me tat at kfc, my heart sank... and saw ur first msg, my heart break. suddenly i dun noe wat to do or say... when i reach home and saw all my comments abt change in relationship status, i feel the pain in my heart... i really dun noe how to reply them...

since things hav happen, i have to accept the fact. the status changed reali dam fast: from frenz to lover n back to frenz within 3daes...希望你能给我一点时间让我搜拾心情。coz now i really dunnoe how to face you...

Im very lost too... i dunnoe wat i doing now... haiz...
in fact, 爱一个人不一定要在一起，只要他快乐，你就会快乐。
爱情是不能勉强的，勉强只会让彼此都很痛苦。
So, I respect your decisions.
Give me some time to think it over....
u dunnid to feel guilty de.... really....

~~t0 Mr XXXX~~

2010-03-14T00:32:00.002+08:00

why must you be so nice???

why must you treat everyone so good...

why must you treat me the same as them?

why cant you stop being such as nice guy and treat me differently from others??

how can i see your feeling when you are treating everyone equally?

do you noe that u are setting up traps for me to fall in....

and there are times you left me behind....

can you dun be so nice to me if u dun like me??

coz i dun wanna fall too deep....

if you have the feel for me, can you just tell me? and dun torture me like this....

im jealous when u r too close to a gal...

im down when you treat another gal the same as me...

im sad when you ignore me...

im disappointed when you do not have me in your mind...

im happy when you treat me so good...

im loved it when you talk to me gently...

im excited when i see you...

but im more excited to hear that you like me~~~

will this happen?!?!?!?!?

2010-03-06T10:05:00.002+08:00

Life In MBS is fun~~

i start to like diz job...

although it's quite stressful due to all the pay out, but

I have nice colleagues around,

a grp of nice people from different backgrounds.

We learn from each other...

Care for each other...

thanks Andy, FIoNA, Carol and not forgetting Ah Kun for making my everydae a SunNy Day...

u have added colours into my life~~~

2010-03-03T01:23:00.000+08:00

我想我已爱上你了！！！

你知道吗？？

心里有没有容纳我的位置？

~mAyBe ToMorRow~

2010-02-19T23:00:00.004+08:00

WhEn i tInK aBoUt wAT We UsEd To bE, i CrY aNd cRy iN sPiTe oF Me.

It JuSt sEEmS CrAzY tAt WaS JuSt LAsT YEaR, i bArelY crIeD oNe tEAr.

N0w Im jUz HoPiNg MaYbE TmL....

MAybe tML TheRe'LL Be n0 MoRe s0RRow

mAyBe tML U'll GIvE Me a gLaNcE

MAybe tmL u'LL GiVe mE oNe LAst cHAncE

MaYBe tmL U'lL gIvE Me a CaLL

MAybe TmL i w0nt cRy At aLL

MAybe TmL u'll huG me TighT

mAyBe tML u'll KisS me G0od NitE

maYBe tmL u'll tAKe Back mY heArt

Maybe u'll giVe mE a BraND neW sTarT

i'm LivIng wItH dreAms TaT wUn c0mE trUe

FOR YOU WILL NEVER LOVE ME AS I LOVE YOU~~

2010-02-17T00:19:00.002+08:00

I am a big failure~~

Im just like a cry baby~~

I cried when im stressed

I cried when im lonely

I cried when im sad

I cried when Im happy

I cried when someone scold me

I cried when someone leaves me

I cried when someone i love dont love me

I cried when i watched sad drama/movie even thu i Knew it's fake

I cried when i know any couple is breaking up

I cried when someone in front of me cries

I cried when i attended a funeral even thu i dun noe that person

I cried when i realised his heart belongs to someone else

I cried when he stop smsing me

I cried when i could not see him

I cried for nothing~~

Im a big failure~~

~eMtY s0uL~

2010-02-12T11:56:00.002+08:00

i feel so emty now....

my one and onli motivation is gone~~~

phone suddenly feel so quiet...

what hav i done?

why is the ending to turn out to be like this?

i dun understand.. i reali dun understand!!!

now i noe the feeling of "it's not impt how a story begins, but it's impt how the story ends"

we will never be able to predict how it end until we've been thru it...

no matter wat, i juz hope he is fine...

coz im worrying for him...

i will continue to wait for him to sms me to tell me tat he's ok le...

2010-02-06T14:54:00.002+08:00

Relationships of all kinds are like sands held in your hand.

Held loosely with an open hand, the sand remains where it is.

The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on,

the sand trickles through your fingers.

You may hold onto some of it, but most will be spilled.

A relationship is like that.

Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person,

it is likely to remain intact.

But hold too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slip away and

Is LOST~~~~~

2010-01-23T12:09:00.002+08:00

im Speechless now...

NOwing tat one dae this will happen but still my heart bleeds..

i've been in there for 4yrs plus,

it's just like my second home...

i've grow up in there...

i spend more time in there than in my own house...

nothing can describe hw hurt my pain is, how deep my wound is...

yes, i have tendered my resignation...

i'm going to leave this place...

it is reali a tough route for me from that dae i type out the letter till the dae i tender.

im speechless now....

i dun noe wat im doing, wat im toking....

now i just need a shoulder for me to lean on n let me cry....

i've hold the tears for 3daes le....

i cant hold it anymore....

2010-01-20T18:36:00.002+08:00

Man's feeling are always purest and most glowing in the hour of meeting and farewell~

Why cant we get all the people together in the world that we really like and just stay together?

Someone will leave and we'll have to say goodbyes!

I hate Goodbyes!

May the road rise up to meet you~

May the wind be ever at your back~

May the Sunshine warm upon your face and the rain fall softly on your fields~

the reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected~

i believe it's time for me to leave~

it's really unbearable for me to leave the place i've been in for 5years...

it may be tough route, but it's memorable~~

X.X.X, u'll always be in my heart!!!!

2010-01-04T14:56:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY

PHOEBE LIM PEIZHEN!!!!!!!

HEHEHE....tat's myself lah.....hahaha....

happy!!!!

Eve of Bdae:

~*~ went out with BBR BeloVed GAnG TT & DaonEh to MS eat HotPot...
but too bad Si is nt able to make it...but nvm... she will make it up for me....hehehe

~*~ RecieveD my 2nD LV bag (Damier NeverFuLL tote MM). i asked my sis to help me buy de..... it is my 1st bdae present for this yr!!! i brought it for myself! LAst yr i brought this SONY Vaio LAppie, diz yr LV..hhehe

~*~ i saw him at MS.... although at that point of time my heart sank, but i did not show it to anyone...hope he is doing well now....

ActuaL Day:

~*~do Spring cleaning wif my daddy n mummy.... my room look dam tidy now... however my warddore still look terrirble coz im too tired to tidy up le... will do it tml...so for the time being, i juz lock the door n no1 will c the big mess inside...LOL

~*~wiLL be MeEting LMP gang later for dinner at T.G.I.Friday...thanks charmaine for orgainising this dinner to celebrate my bdae....i have yrs nv c them le... most of them will be turning up but nt sheryl n pam... so sad.. short of them...hehe...

~~a DaRk NeW YeAr~~

2010-01-01T23:47:00.002+08:00

HApPy NeW yEaR t0 EvEryOne!!!!

whiLe everyone is happliy celebrating new yr,

Most of the staffs in RH are mourning for one of our staff.

the one who pass away every this morning...

from wat i've heard, he is a veri nice guy who help colleagues alot....

i felt so sad for his wife n 2 kids....

life is like this.....

we will never be able to expect wat will happen to us tml or later....

normally good people will live short while those rotten shit live long.....

it is so unfair....why must they take away the life of a nice guy and give it to those shitty people...

haiz.... i juz hope he will live better in heaven...

we will miss u....

GUYS, LIFE IS SHORT!!!! SO PLS TREASURE THE ONE ARD YOU BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE...

~~baD NewS~~

2009-12-20T20:18:00.002+08:00

a bad news.....

my dad got RETRENCHED.....

it's a very bad news for both my dad n my family....

Coz my dad is the onli earning for the family. . .

at this point of time,

i can onli tink of ways to save money n earn money...

I can never think of resigning anymore...

I intially wanted to resign and take a rest... however, now is impossible..

wat shld i do??

i dun have any savings....

hope those ppl who owe me money pls return to me ASAP!!!!

it's nt tat i wanna to chase after you for the $$$ but is tat i reali nid it...

i reali dun noe hw can i survive wif this small amt of salary to support myself n oso my family....

HAIZ.....

APPRECIATION LETTER

2009-11-26T15:22:00.003+08:00

YES!!!! i've passed my driving test with only 8demerit points.... hehe.... so i wrote in to thank my instructor.....

Dear Sir/Mdm,

I would like to express my appreciation to Mr Alex Chia (0381), my driving instructor. When i first joined One team, im left with less than 4months before my FTT expired. DUring these period, i failed my PT once and finally i've passed with flying colours on 23Nov09. Mr Chia was my instructor for my all 34 lessons. He never fail to cheer me up during the whole journey and never fail to protect me from harms. His temper is also very good. For the past few months, he had provided me with lots of knowledge about driving. Some instructors will teach learners under the guidelines, however, Mr Chia will change the rules and teach me according to my type or rather reactions. I've Been looking forward everyday for my driving lessons. And maybe it was him who motivated me to pass my retest with flying colours in order to repay what he has done for me.

Mr Chia,

No words can really describe how much i owe you. You've been a great help over the past months. I'm so glad I've passed! I greatly appreciate the attention, patience, care and concern toward me. I will always remember your willingness to help me during my time of need especially the last thing you did for me during the last lesson and the time when i first failed. It really takes a big heart to do it. Your example is a wonderful lesson to me. Please accept my sincere thanks.

Once again,

THANK YOU MR ALEX CHIA (0381). HOPE I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN!!!!!

And they reply me with this:

Dear Madam,

Thank you for your kind letter regarding the exceptional treatment by our Instructor. ComfortDelGro Driving Centre has always endeavoured to deliver a high level of service and we are pleased to know that we have played a vital part in your driving success. A commendation letter has been extended to the Instructor and a copy forwarded to our Personnel Department to be kept in his personal files. This will definitely motivate him and it will also be taken into consideration during the performance appraisal exercise.

Once again, thank you for taking the time to write to us and we wish you all the best.

i hope this will help him to promote and increase pay. Coz he is also a very nice father who dote his children alot.....thank you my chia!

2009-11-22T21:28:00.001+08:00

tml will be my driving retest....

wish me luck!!!!

2009-11-18T01:46:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 21sT BIRTHDAY ZQ!!!!!

You are very special and you deserve the best!!!!!

I wish you a wonderful life filled with love and happiness,

No one desrves a happier birthday than you.

Wishing you all the great things in life,

hope this day will bring you an extra share of all that makes you happiest !!!!!!!!!

2009-11-18T01:29:00.004+08:00

Suddenly i feel very lonely...

i wanted to share my burden, my sorrow to someone...

but i do not know who can i talk to....

i realise that i do not have someone to talk to...

who i can cry out loud on his/her shoulder

and he/she hug me tightly to make me feel warm...

i feel so cold so lonely....

i am really very tired....

when can i stop all these????????

好累好累。。。我快支持不住了。。。

2009-11-12T20:19:00.002+08:00

iT's tImE fOr mE to WaKe Up lE!!!!!!!

2009-10-15T20:12:00.001+08:00

i want to get pregnant !!!!!

~DRIVING TEST~

2009-10-10T14:06:00.002+08:00

haizzzzzzz......

i FAILED my PT.... wif a dam dam lousy score...

these are the mistakes:

1) strike pole - parallel parking - 4points

2) not enough side clearance given to other road users/object - 8points

3) Fail to check mirror before turning - 2points

4) incorrect checking of blindspot/mirror - 2points

5) failure to give way to traffic with right of way ( which is tat stupid AMBULANCE) - IMMEDIATE FAILURE

6) Caused other vehicles to slow down or take evasive action - 8points

7) fail to keep within lane on straight road - 4points

8) fail to check mirror before slowing down - 2points

9) fail to check blindspot - 4points

haiz....
total of 34 demerit points and one immediate failure......

wat to do.... cant blame anyone but myself...

my next test date is on 23 NOV 09 @ 11.45am

but i realise something... my instructor Alex veri concern abt me..

before my warm-up he saw me n he remind me of the mistakes n ask me to be calm...

after my test which is after his lunch, he go n find me... knowing tat i fail, he nv blame me but console me.

he noes that my FTT will expire on 06 DEC 09,

he sae if my retest is after my FTT expire,

he ask me not to book and call him. he will settle it for me.... he is really a veri nice instructor....

but lucky its on 23NOV09... hope i can really pass this time round...

btw, my tester TAN XXXXXXXX veri fierce loh....

when he point out my mistakes, i almost cry loh.....

nvm lah.... i will try harder next time....

JIA YOU!!!!

~bacK to SerVice~

2009-10-04T20:48:00.003+08:00

i have been inside bar for more than 6months le i think.... ever since anand go out for cross training till last week....

i'm really very happy to work inside the bar... i used to quarrel with eric everytime we see each other... but now, we are like frenz frenz le... we even join forces to attack XXXX... HAHAHA!!!!

i really feel abit sad when i was asked to go back to do service... coz i miss working with eric and the rest of the barmaids. i've got no more freedom in service le...

back to service for one week le and i got an injection just on the first day!!! my back pain is back and the pain was unbearable that i had to do an injection to stop the pain... currently still not medication to stop the pain...

something that makes me happy is that i receive 3 compliment letter from the guests within this one week... it has been a long long time since i recieved a compliment letter... hahaha....i just hope that these 3 letter will make the management change their view of me especially XXX... XXX always think that im useless loh...i shall proof it to XXXX that im not an easy target!!!!

~jOuRnAL 0f LuV~

2009-10-02T23:32:00.003+08:00

Something to share with others!

I guess there are many who always wonder what it is like to live in a life when you are in a relationship. There would be someone who would take care of you; there will always be someone who will be in your mind as both of you parted ways.If you have not been in a relationship before, you would think it’s like an ice-cream, so sweet and appealing that makes you happy the moment you got your hands to it. Every time when you see someone eating an ice-cream, you might swallow your saliva down to quench your desire.

The fact is you are probably right; a relationship is like an ice-cream. Not just the part when you look at someone having them but the challenge comes the moment you are holding onto it.Of all things we know, ice-cream always melt faster than we could eat it. This is where the similarity of a relationship comes in place. Love appears the moment when two person comes together leaving all odds apart.As times grew, there are many things which you would come to know regarding your partner and she will know many unpleasant past of you. Through acceptance comes the bonding of this relationship.You would enjoy it sometimes; you would dislike it sometimes when it doesn’t go your way.

Just like the ice-cream when it drips off your shirt. You might feel yourself like a complete idiot walking around with a stained shirt.You looked at the melting ice-cream in your hands as you walked. How great difference it is the moment you got it and now. You feel frustrated because it is suppose to be an enjoyment as you’ve seen others having it. Finally you might throw the unfinished ice-cream away because it is not suppose to be the way you would want.You would start looking for a new one.Looking back in a relationship, there should be some reflection. We would not get what we always want; our feelings will deteriorate one day be it through time or faith and it is not as pleasant as we see others having it.

Would we end it because it is not something we want and look for a new one?

So what can we do?

We could at least enjoy it while it last.Knowing that from the moment of having it, we remember the first taste that sets upon our tongue. We remembered the taste and feeling of the past and live to embrace it’s memories.Even if it really ends one day, we know that we will never forget.The memories of the relationship would put a smile back one day, when we forget about the sadness.

This is Love, nothing last forever but it existence among people will last a long time.

~Raffles V.S Marina Sand~

2009-09-13T12:37:00.002+08:00

i have received a call from marina sand telling me that im been hired as a dealer in their casino le...

the first tot of it was dam happy...

coz im realli in need of that 1.8K pay....

although im excited, i have doubts in it....

hearing from alot of ppl tat lifespan in IR is veri short...

they hired the first batch of staffs with high pay,

after 6mths, they will hire new staffs with lower pay n fire the old staffs...

this realli make me worried....

on the other hand,

i cant bear to leave RH BBR...

despite all the shiitty things happened over there,

i still love it alot...(not including some MGMT)

BBR is filled with lots of memories....

REGARDLESS happy or sorrow,

im still proud to be one of them...

wat shld i do??

i have to leave coz of the low pay....

i have to go coz of the high pay.....

in fact, i hate to change job de... coz i hate to start all over again....

tell me... wat shld i do..... im really lost......

~The fundamentals of love~

2009-08-31T21:15:00.004+08:00

Think back to the day when you first laid eyes on her. You found yourself charmed by the way she talks, the way she dresses herself to show off her best features and the way she embraces life with her laughter. It seemed as if a mysterious "chemistry effect" has suddenly developed to draw you closer to her.

You two then began to meet regularly, and you discover more things that you admire about her. Her clever ideas, her healthy values and the way she stands up for you when others doubt you. You find yourself thinking of her not just as a normal friend, but a very good friend. It is often during this period that a boy and a gal will start thinking of bringing their friendship to another level. After all, the kind of wonderful experience you have between each other can only become even better if it develops into a romantic relationship. In other words, the feeling is really unique - no one else seems able to replace her in your heart. So both of you agree to go steady and work even harder on the relationship. You "graduate" to become a couple, and are the envy of the sea of singles.

When You Forget The Fundamentals

However, at some point in your relationship, you forgot how it all began. You start to take your partner for granted. Why can't she laugh in a more ladylike manner? Why doesn't she dress herself more trendily? Why must she assert her views and point out your silly mistakes? Is she really the one for you?

To be fair to yourself and to her, take some time to reflect on your "love memory". The "love memory" contains all the reasons that you fell in love with her right from Day One. It contains rarely accessed snippets of how your life has changed since meeting and loving her. Pre-steady days, did you heap compliments on her for the brave way she spoke her mind on bullies and snobs? You probably did. Did you like her unusual fashion sense that makes her stand out from the crowd? Right-o. So why are you criticising or finding fault with her now that she is your girlfriend? Because you have forgotten the fundamentals of love, like so many of us. You have forgotten the reasons you admired her during the friendship phase. Instead, once you went steady, you put your "love memory" in cold storage. As her boyfriend, you take up a new set of demands and expectations about her. These new ideas are not necessarily better; they could put your relationship at risk.

The Secret Of Strong Relationships

A healthy relationship, like learning to walk properly, ollows a step-by-step development. You can't possibly become part of a couple if you aren't friends in the first place. Ok, I know some of us break the rule and plunge straight into whirlwind courtship, but how many of those couples can go the distance? Couplehood works well when there is something you like about her (and vice versa), and I'm not referring to merely the physical aspects. So whenever your relationship hits a rocky path, don't give up without checking on your "love memory". Rediscover the reasons why you fell in love with her, and watch your relationship flourish with a newfound vigour. "Follow the rule of love and enjoy it, as loving someone is a wonderful and sweet experience."

2009-08-21T22:12:00.002+08:00

if given a choice, will you want to go back to the past or go to the future?
have you ever thought of this question?

i've never ask myself this before.. until someone asked me...
i think for very long but no matter what answer i give,
it will never fulfill my wish...
if i were given a choice,
i really hope i can go back to the past...
the time when i just gradate from secondary,
and just know him...that is the time im the happiest...
and i hope time will stop from there....
if this is too much to ask for,
then i hope to go back to those daes when im just a little kid...

i uses to be my family's smile...
i bring smiles to each and everyone of them...
no matter how hard our financial is,
we will all stay together and face it together...
my mum and dad are very proud of me....
.i scored in school's exam,
work veri hard to earn my own pocket money...
my mum always told me tat they never worry for me before...
she always told my aunts that
"my ah zhen veri guai one, i dun nid to worry for her one".

however, they start to worry for me after i broke up with him...
my mum cried in front of me...
holding on to my hand and told me these...
my heart is really pain when i heard these...
i really dun wanna to make them worry one,
but i just cant help to become who i am today...
even my sis, she is also very worried for me...
she worried till she almost jump down from 9storey...

i used to be a cheerful gal...
im like a clown in class, a chatterbox at home...
but now, i no longer have that feel anymore...
my life now is just work eat slp work eat slp....
nothing else... even on my off daes, i just stay at home...
not wanting to go out...

frankly speaking,
i dont have any close frenz or rather best frenz...
i dun belong to any group of frenz...
i've no frenz... ever since pri sch till poly,
im just a student in the class...
yes, ppl can sae arent i ur frenz etc??
but do u really understand me? know my everything??
am i the 1st person u tot of whenever u nid console?
or im just a frenz who u can goes out, makan together?

im a big failure in everything...
a big failure at home....
a big failure in studies...
a big big faliure in relationships....
a big failure in frenzship....
IM A BIG BIG BIG FAILURE!!
A TOTAL FAILURE!!!

if one dae i pass away,
who will go to my funeral?
is it alot?? i dun noe...
but i noe tat my family will definely be there...

thanks daddy
for working so hard to support us even thu u can enjoy ur retirement but u didnt.

thanks mummy
for not leaving us in this world and ask doc to let u go home coz we r sching...

thanks sis
for lending me ur shoulder to cry...

thanks bro
for taking over my place to cheer daddy n mummy up...

thanks my frens from all over
for filling my life with some colours...

thanks ah siong
for telling me the truth to stop me from loving u more...

im just someone who are not worth wasting time on~~

~rAiNy DaEs~

2009-08-21T18:05:00.003+08:00

juz came back from driving lessons...

haiz..

think im sux at driving...

todae my instructor angry le...

but he nv scold me....

he use another soft way to make me scared....

"Sorry, teacher!!! i didnt mean to do it de...

hope u will not be angry...

i'll be more serious....dun angry ok!!!!"

oh ya, todae is rainy dae!!!

i was on the road when the rain was like dam heavy!!!

i cant even see the road in front loh....

n those idiot inconsiderate drivers juz drove past me

dam fast and causes the flooded area water all splash onto my windscreen...

at that few sec, i was blinded by the water....

lucky my beloved instructor is there...

n hor, got one motorist turned along the traffic light, and fall leh...

i was behind him... wanted to get out of car n help him de,

but in the end nv... coz if like this, i will caused traffic jam behind..

hope he is ok....

Finally, things between ZQ n XQ hav settled already...

haha.... reali got terrible headache when i see their blog n fb...

hahaha....

oh ya, ytd i went for a job interview...

as an outlet manager in Coffee bean...

the interviewer is a nice lady....

however, the pay offered was not wat i expected...

n coz i'll be going PT uni next yr, when decreased my chance...

coz they wanted a mgr tat can work overtime when needed,

especially when now they are veri shorthanded...

wat to do.... i can onli WAIT for their call for 2nd interview wif their district mgr loh..

WAIT~~WAIT~~WAIT~~

today is my last dae of leave le... tml hav to go back work le....

SIANZZZZ....

9daes of leave seems so short.... how i wish i can on leave for 9months..

La~~~La~~~La~~~

back to hell training le~~~

~caR AcCidEnt~

2009-08-15T19:13:00.003+08:00

ytd went for driving lesson...

however, i almost cant come back and blog...

coz i almost kanna accident while driving ytd...

qi shi hor, i oso dun realli remb wat happen tat time coz im blank at tat time...

i onli noe when tat happen, i wanna brake but my instructor shout at me

n ask me to press the gas...dun brake...

lucky he wake me up, if not i think im like floating ard my hse now le...LOL...

it reali scared the shit out of me n my instructor loh...

he first time shout at me... but after that, he calm me down....

thanks mr chia.... i reali enjoy ur coaching.... i'll be more serious on my next lesson...

btw, i've discussed with my dad regarding my uni stuff....

i've decided to take up Murdoch Uni le...

but now hav to wait till my sis come back from SHA, n discuss on the payment matters...

YEAH!!!! tml going geylang makan DIM SUM woh...

it's a mini farewell dinner for alex de... he will be leaving us soon...

so sad!!! will miss him de...

~dRiVinG+UnI~

2009-08-13T19:25:00.002+08:00

hey hey hey!!!!

pai seh so long never update... coz lazy n tired!!!

just came back from my driving lessons!!

todae is my 3th n 4th lesson...

hmm... i loves driving now..hehehe...

and im lucky that i've got a nice n funny instructor...

he's Mr Alex Chia (0381).

he is a very nice guy with no temper...

always joke around with me to calm me down...

hehehehe.... todae i no longer drving ard the circuit but out to the "battLE hiLL".

everything will fine but onli ting is i tend to go to another lane while change gear..

n my instructor will faster pull me back n sae

"AN LAH..... im here... dun worry lah...

the most later u take stearing wheel ,

i take handbrake back to driving centre onli mah.."

then if i stop too near the car in front, he will add on

"u take additional wheel back onli mah".

hahaha.... i feel safe when he is around... so i will purposely book the daes n time that he teach.

btw, i start on leave again starting from todae....

so i will chiong my driving lessons during these time. Coz my P.T is on 10OCT09.

i hope i can pass my test... coz if nt i will hav to retake FTT coz it will expire diz DEC.

after driving lesson, went to murdoch Uni as bra basah.

i went there to find out more abt the courses n fee etc.

after discussing wif jennifer, im reali interested in joining Murdoch instead of UniSIM.

however, Murdoch does not have gov. grant have Exemption and is juz beside my hotel

while UniSIM have gov grant of 40% but no exemption at all plus is dam dam far from my hse.

headache lah.... i reali dun noe wat to do siah.... hw ah???

any suggestions?

2009-07-30T22:20:00.002+08:00

IM TIRED....

IM VERY VERY TIRED...

SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYTHING...

I NEED A BREAK!!!!

A LONG LONG LONG LONG BREAK...

MY LIFE ONLY REVOLVES AROUND BBR AND BBR...

IM JUST TOO WEAK TO HOLD ON TO THESE...

WHEN WILL ALL THESE ENDED?????

PLS.... LET ME GO.... SET ME FREE...

18JUL- 20JUL

2009-07-20T17:56:00.003+08:00

18JUL

hehehe... went ZIRCA again...

this time is wif my sec sch sisters....

XJ brought three guys to join us...haaha...

was being cheated to go up the cage(sky dance) to dance....

but no pic coz the pic was blurred... SADDED..

.tonite was not that my usual stamina coz of the music bah....

maybe coz of my stomach too...it was like smth fighting inside it....dam pain...

ZP drove the 7seater car!!!

hahaha.... which can send all 7 of us home!!!

so happy loh,,, first time got car to send me home after clubbing..

.went home at 4am!!!!

ZP n ME

ZHi QianG-thE EMo Zhi QIaNg n NoEL

19JuL

twisted my leg while walking towards RH

As usuAl BrunCh wAs SUX...

wenT to woRK at 2pm and clEar Up thE BLOODY MESSY bAR...

Expected to PUMP sLinG...

n tat good CApTaIN LeFt Me wIf 3pIEces oF sLInG gaRniSh n

wif a replY "I DUN CARE" and Walk Off...

dam PISSED off...

wanna noe more, call me, i tell u more angry stuff...

.somEtiMEs I wonDFer wHy I fiGHt so HArD foR hIS BAR for WAT

whRby i caNt duN boTheR and juz finiSh mY cross trAINING THEN FUCK off the bar..

wat for i do this for him?

yes, i fiGht wIF ANiL regardinG everythIng...

From change dustbin, to cutting fruits to washing glsses to

doing fruit stn to setting n clearing jiuce stn,

to pulling of staff from my bar to do service

whrby service is perfect my bar is Fuck up....

EVERYTHING!!! i juz burst out everything....

later after the nite manager is william....

he take care of my bar while i go cut garnish...

then i dun bother to do the rest...

i dun bother to sweep n mop the floor, dun bother to clean the coffee machine...

im dam pissed off...wat for i do so much n he juz sit there n watch...

i had enough already...

i juZ reLAx anD took some funny pic wif bbrian!!!

mE n BabY beaR-GhiA BB n DesmonD-Ge Zhi

me BB Ge zhi baby bear n mama bear

my "BF" william

20JUL

todae on MC....

YTd suddenly twisted my leg while walking ....

todae morning the pain is even worst and swollen...

n my GOOD ManageR expect mE to go Set up the bar 1st before i take MC..

so i LIMP there n climb up wif my lIMp leg to take down the bottle

display...DAM DAM PAIN!!!!!

now my both legged was being banaged..

one is old injury another is new....

lazy to take Pic .... hahaha....

SUMMARY

2009-07-13T13:42:00.006+08:00

SORRY!!! these few daes to lazy to blog le...

here are the summary:

1) start on leave from 03juL to 08juL but stay at home and rott

2) watch transformer wif my sis n bro at downtown east cathay.my sis's treat.. although i dont really understand the story line, but the fighting screen was dam nice.. i enjoyed watching it.

3) went batam with doris parents n tuan tuan. huisi couldnt make it.... as usual, we went shopping for food and had seafood feast!! yummy! i love the salted egg crab. it's dam dam nice...

diz time round we went to somewhr diff from last trip. we went to KTM resort n CCLL.. it has very nice seaview.but rooms r quite expensive . btw here are some pic that we took at KTM Resort.

oh ya, i forgot to tell u all... i brought a ralph rarens polo.. haiz... dunnoe if it's real one, but it is still tat expensive..after converting to SIng dollar is rd $68 after 20% discount. hehe... but i like it alot... it has the country name n flag one... i brought England one...

4) BRUNCH is SUX... DAm busy n Messy!!!! Plus BBR is closed after HI-TEa until tue nite then open. a throughout cleaning will be done in BBR whole restaurant... we are to clear EVERYTHING out from main bar, martini bar, AHU room, walk in chiller, BAr dry store and kitchen. whole restaurant must be Emty.. can u imagine how we suffer... everyone is dam shag after the clearing n moving..haha.... but it give me a chance to throw away things tat Mr Eric kept for yrs n cant bear to throw de... how can eric off leh, he muz suffer wif me mah rite..hahaha.... NVM, tue is ROUND 2.. he will be joining me to suffer too....hahha... oh ya, i shld hav take pic of the emty Restaurant.. hahaha...

5) Thanks to BBR BRunch.. i INjured my back coz of ctn and ctn of champagne. . . plus after ytd of moving, my back and leg injury has worsen. i have no choice but to go see sinseh todae early morning... coz i cant slp properly as i cant lie down... doc read my pulse n sae my zhong qi nt good, my blood pressure abit high, my heart no good everything nt good ah... he help me tui my back n leg...n i hav to go back at least twice a week to tui...if nt i cant hav babies in future coz of my back injuries. HAIZ.... thanks man.... each visit is $45 loh... haiyo... whr am i going to find $$$ for it... haiz...HEADACHE! see my ugly back n leg bah.>>>

~2ND fatal inJurieS~

2009-06-19T22:55:00.003+08:00

i dont know what came into me,

i just have to urge to see him to patch with him.

After Work, wHile on the Way hOme,

I pIck uP mY MobIle aNd Msg him.

~Can we Still Be TogetHer agAin? wIlL y0u gIve Us A sEcoNd ChanCe to Make foR foR thE MisTakE?~

As ExpeCteD, he DId Not rePly...

ActUalLy i HaVe AlreAdY eXpeCted ThaT hE wiLl noT rEPly,

BuT StiLl, i WaNteD tO sEnd ThIs Msg.

beCauSe iF i DonT dO iT noW, i Will NoT hAve aNoThEr ChanCe t0 t0k tO hIm AnyMore lE....

bY thE End 0F thIs MonTh he WiLl Be TermInatIng tHis nUmbEr wHich I appLy fOr hiM dE...

aNd thAt wIll MeanS thAt i WiLL nOt bE aBle t0 ConTAct hIm AnyMOre..

EvEryThiNg wIll Ends With A fuLLstOp......

haiz... it;s over lE ...

eVeR SinCe wE BroKE uP, I KepT HoPiNg ThaT hE wIll ComE bAcK tO Me..

bUt Now, My HeaRt DieS....

I nO LongEr HopInG iT le....

i JuST HoPe ThAt He WilL FinD a BetTeR GaL thAn Me ,

WHo KnOWS HoW tO tAke CaRE OF hIm, LovEs Him MOre ThaN i Do...

AS LonG As He IS HaPpy , i Will bE HaPPy.....

~LADIES NITE~

2009-06-12T17:05:00.006+08:00

June 12th, 2009
steamboat + clubbing
6/12/09 04:11 pm

last nite, went to bugis for steamboat after work...
buttok was veri veri pain, even now is oso pain loh...but still went for the dinner...hehe... the food was nice.... but veri expensive...lol...however after dinner, we were thinking of where to go... n daoneh juz randomly sae go arena for a drink as todae is ladies nite n we gget to drink free flow of sex on the beach, etc..so everyone proceed to clark quay...we walk round n round to find the arena..however, when we finally found the place, we had a bad news which is they had a function n we could only go in at 12am..after asking lots of clubs, pubs, we decided to go ZIRCA.... coz it's free entry for students!!!of coz we take out our "student pass" and manage to go it loh...hehehe....hahaa.... out of no where, we just go club after a buffet steamboat dinner...hmm.... the nite was full of fun.... but one thing spoilt my nite was my outfit... is so ugly.... look more like im going beach loh....haha... PLUS my buttok so pain... cant reali do much dancing..hehehe... one thing makes me happy is. at least got two guys wanna to dance with me woh....LOL..aiya, but still, i feel so irritated by my outfit...hahaha....
btw, dao neh dam good loh.... she can just spend $10 for the whole nite including steamboat, clubbing, drinks, mac n cab loh...p.s dao neh happy rite...n hor the drinks there dam exp loh....yizhen ordered half dozen of sex on the beach n it cause her $48++ loh...as usual i order my fav which is CHIVAS!!!!let me show u the pics:eee..... i dun like diz lah.... go my facebook n see the photo bah...LOL

YIZHEN, SEVA, ME & DORIS

doRIS & ME

JOEY, ADIE & GHIA

DORIS & ME

GROUP PHOTO

CHEERS~~~

GROUP PIC @ CANNERY

2009-06-12T17:04:00.000+08:00

June 7th, 2009
~my FiRsT LoVe~
6/7/09 10:04 pm

dun get it wrong...hahaha...todae went to hougang mall with Daoneh to buy my camera...haha....really have to thanks daoneh for accompanying me to go buyCoz i noe Nuts aBt cameras...i admit that i am a electronic idiot....even my laptop is oso she go with me go buy de...it's baby pink colour woh...Casio Exilim ex-Z2...i name in First LovE...Coz, it is my veri first camera...hahaha....my laptop is my husband, hp is my boyfriend n camera is my qing fu....LOL....husband is to be kept at home but u cant do anything without it....boyfriend must be with you no matter where u go as it can give u a sense of secure...and qing fu is only there when u need it.... if not, it juz stay at home and do nth...now show u pics of my qing fu...nice hor....hehehe....shall start taking pics le....

2009-06-12T17:01:00.000+08:00

Kbox 040609
6/5/09 03:12 pm

ytd went for K session with BBR staff.... hahaha.... alot of funny thing happen.... me, husi, yizhen n cheryl went in at 7pm and we start to sing...desmond n nagu couldnt find the place n called me... miscommunication btw us i told him our room number n he tot i tell him the unit number of the place...after so long, wondering where they are...they still missing...so huisi went to find them..desmond told us that they are somewhr near espirt..huisi went there but could not find them n called them... when they come in, huisi told me a funy thing...the truth is desmond n nagu are near the Espirt POSTER... LOL...funny rite....n we found out a veri funny thing is abt WILLIAM...at first we are wondering why the staffs of KBOX can remb william leh...then we noe why le..the reason is: that nite, william book a big room and sit down there from 10pm to 1am drinking....LIke a EMO guy... nv sing oso...william so funny loh.... tat's a best time to sing loh.... he nv....hahaha.... then that nite i kept pretending i m him tat nite n do those emo acts...LOLSing from 7pm till huisi n yizhen went home.... i have to sing alone....then i sing and sing till anand they all come, i oso sing n sing....LOL...onli until william come at rd 1am, then i stop for a while... but when they are playing wif dies, i start to sing again...LOLwhen i wanna stop, i hav to sing duet wif william...LOL.. ( is SHAN HU HAI WOH) lucky huisi got train wif me, if nt i pai sei loh...LOL...then wiliiam stop singing n start playing dies with them again.... but he kept losing.... haiyoyoy.... he always lose de loh....loser have to botooms up rd 1/3 gls of jimbean NEAT loh....poor uncle william kept drinking.... n kept asking me to help...hahaha...in order to stop him from disturbing me from singing, i bottoms up for him....hahaha.... so long nv bottoms up whiskey le.... SO SHIOK...we order a btl of chivas n absolue in order to wave 8pax cover charge....but CHIVAS LEH>>>>> i nv drink loh.... coz i cant drink due to my rashes in my hand....sian loh.... dun care, next time i go, i wanna drink my fav chivas...
hmm.... i realise that desmond is veri good at billiard loh...the rest of hunks in BBR oso can play veri well loh.... hmmm....hahahaha..... dam dam long veri play le... so i play like KNS loh....oh ya, say hoe n nagu got a special skill like me loh... which is FLYING BALLS!!!!hahaha....n i found out a big big secret woh.... hahah... cannt sae lah... later he sae i anyhow spreadenough of toking..... pics will tell u more wohz!!!pics load veri slow.... go my facebook n c bah..

HATE THIS...

2009-06-12T16:59:00.000+08:00

I HATE CURRENT MANAGEMENT, CURRENT WORKPLACE, CURRENT COLLEAGUE ETC.... I HATE EVERYTHING NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I uses to like this place and enjoy working there, but after rounds and rounds of transfering staffs, our restaurant SUX!!!i have never feel that way before... ever since our "daddy" S.H left us, our world turn 360degree.. we have to change everything right from the start. we no longer feel happy or proud to work there anymore.. service SUX, bar SUX, chefs SUX, everythings SUX!!I dun understand why must we change everything everytme a new manager abroad. it's not because we are not doing things well but it's tat we are not doing it in ur way... why cant they put down their armour and feel wat we are like? ANd stop thinking that we are only a buffet restaurant... all we do is clear plates clear plates... i can tell u all this: BBR is never an easy place to work in... i can swear that we are much more tired and have much more work to be done than any other restaurants in RH. if u think that it is so easy to do it, then go ahead n CHALLANGE ME... I DARED YOU!!!AND I hate YOU, U & YOU. STOP ACTING VERI FRIENDLY TO ME WHEREBY YOU BACKSTAB ME FROM BACK... You are not showing that u r veri great but instead u r telling everyone tat u are a LOSER! A GREAT LOSER!!!! FUCK OFF MAN~~~I AM VERI sick and tired of working there le.... now even i slp, i need to take some pills to help me slp if not i cant slp at all...when will we stop this torture?? PLS!!LET ME GO~~i cant breathe anymore~~

~a nEW lIFE~

2007-08-22T12:59:00.000+08:00

IHAVE MOVED......
RELINK ME OK.....

http://epiggy88.livejournal.com

~wEDdINg iNvITATion List~

2007-08-21T11:54:00.000+08:00

hey, i wanna to marry soon.... which grown shld i wear?? hmm......

hahaha..... hmm.... mayb i shuld start with my list of invitation....

malaysia
dear dear's relatives n friends
Olivia-BBR

Singapore
my relatives will settle by my parents....
now is my friends.....

Poly mates
charmaine
charlene
candice
pamela
sui lan
hui xin
poi jiao

joyce

reggie n family (3)

jimson
jaren

Chaplin

keng kee

(those in bold shall be my bridemaid )

BBR

hui si

michelle

yi zhen

grace

joey

Alan

Jennifer

Doris

rachel

debbie

stacy

Eric

boon teck

calvin

johnathon

Pariss

ray

joanne

joseph

candance

da jie

mr hunag

william

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

In case i forgot anyone, pls inform me... hehehe.... n the above bu4 fen1 xiang1 hou4.... so dun fight huh.... n tell me hu u wan to sit same table wif....lol.....hahahahahhahaha

~Business Chinese & PRC Culture~

2007-08-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

today we had our BCPRCC presentation which was a horror to me....... i spend 2 nites to finish the whole report..... my grp members was like dots dots dots..... yes they gt go things BUT they juz copy n paste from wikipedia....in th eend me and kk hav to do their part for them too.... can u imagine writing a report using chinese.....and worse thing is present in chinese...

we are the 1st grp to present. we suppose to mit 1.30pm to reharse our ppt. in the end only me n kk reached on time.... one, J come at 1.40 and another idiot A came at 1.55pm. in the we did nt managed to rehrase n we juz go in and do wateva we can.

i feel so weird nt wearing the blazer wif formal wear during presentation. mayb i'm too used to wearing it. hahaha. . . i feel as if i nv wear anything in front of everyone. . . weird rite? before the real thing, i n kk practiced outside the cls, n words juza cant go thru smoothly from my mouth. but when it comes to the real thing, i can do a much better job than b4.... i can even speed up my words when teacher say we left 5mins.... that's so cool loh. din noe i can present better in chinese...
below is my speech for todae:

"谢谢keng kee，接下来我将告诉你西部开发的原因。首先是中国西部经济。中国西部经济将继续保持快速增长，为外商投资西部创造更多的投资机会。经过二十多年的快速发展，西部地区已奠定了一定的物质技术基础，社会保持稳定，市场经济体制正在建立和完善之中，为西部经济持续快速增长创造了有利的市场环境。随着西部大开发战略的稳步推进，西部地区的资源优势、经济优势将得到充分发挥，经济增长的质量和水平将进一步提高。第二，　改善投资环境。中国政府将着力改善投资环境，进一步增强对外商投资的吸引力。目前，正在把改善投资环境的工作重点放在致力于完善投资的软环境上。最后，外商投资。国家鼓励西部的政策已经并将继续发挥积极作用，为外商投资西部提供了有力的政策支持。这主要是扩大中西部地区拓宽投资方式、放宽对外商投资的限制、对在鼓励投资的领域设立的外商投资企业给予更加优惠的税收待遇、加大对投资项目的金融支持、设立国家级经济技术开发区以营造优良的投资环境等六个方面。接下来，adeline 将为您述说为何重庆成都成为“新特区” 。

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谢谢keng kee。下一个是扩大对外对内开放政策。扩大服务贸易对外开放如将外商对银行、商业零售企业投资的试点扩大到西部。并且，鼓励外商投资于西部地区的农业、水利、旅游等基础设施建设和资源开发，以及建立技术研究开发中心。西部地区可享受外商投资的优惠政策。最后是吸引人才和发展科技教育的政策。鼓励在华外商投资企业再投资，并且，鼓励外资投资非油气矿产资源开发。如果，方便外籍人员出入境，那么在西部地区投资数额较大的外商投资企业，其外方投资者和企业的外籍高级管理人才、技术人员可获提供出入境便利。"

i belive most of u cant read the most of the words rite...hahahah.. coz u all ang mo pai mah..
or yeah, todae i realise something. that is the gang that me n kk hate most rite, is the "star" for tode. i din noe that whole cls hate them... they were like teasing that gang aspecially that T. she is the most irritating person in cls ever. always lick the teacher's boots. disgusting person. n the way she present makes all of us puke.... she act like she is in china loh wif all those twist tougne sound. the funnist part is whenever she gic example she will sae " my uncle sae diz, my uncle sae tat" until one guy in our cls said "ur uncle again ah" then she stop using her uncle. n they always make fun of her langgage.. like the words she use. you noe the "da jing xiao guai" she go and sae "xiao jing da guai", still gt alot of funny words come out frm her mouth loh... dam funny lah... then after cls, their grp go n lick the teacher boots again.... reali cant stand them.....
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i have not seen my xiang gong for like almost 2 weks le.... i wonder if he miss me.... i have no feeling anymore.....i'm numb towards his feeling. i dun miss him anymore n dun even have that urge to see him faster. wat is happening to me? do i still love him? i dun noe. still have 1 more weeks to go.....

~我爱你的心~

2007-08-11T17:49:00.000+08:00

往前开下去很快就到, 转角你的家一路都在找却想不出还能说什么话. 但雨点落在玻璃上拼命打, 沉默更显得可怕. 在十字路口, 红灯亮起我们要停下. 你手机响了, 你不说话只用笑来回答, 你心里只有爱着你想你的他.

突然我觉得说爱你说恨你不过是多余的话..........

我爱你的心你怎么能忍心都敲碎!
给你的安慰难道只是我的一场误会.

告诉我吧我无所谓. 流过的眼泪紧紧的依偎莫非全部是白费.

你爱过的心我要怎么才能唤得回, 爱情的余味原来只是我的一场误会 .你都收回我无所谓所有的伤悲由我来面对.

在十字路口红灯亮起爱情要停下, 什么都没说但你笑容泄漏你的选择.
你心里只有爱着你想着你的他.

突然我觉得说爱你说恨你不过是多余的话.....

在十字路口红灯亮起爱情要停下, 什么都没说但你笑容泄漏你的选择, 我们的过去忘了吗, 忘了吧!!!!
再听不到再看不到你牵挂!!!!!!!!

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直到爱消失　你才懂得去珍惜身边每个美好风景.
只是他早已离去直到你想通,　他早已经不再对你留恋最后的你.
开始了一段挣扎你那么爱他,　为什么不把他留下为什么不说心里话.
你深爱他　这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他为什么不把她留下 ????
是不是你有深爱的两个他 ?
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔直到爱消失,你才懂得去珍惜身边每个好风景.
只是他早已离去直到你想通,　他早已经不再对你留恋.
最后的你　开始了一段挣扎.
你那么爱他　为什么不把他留下 ?
为什么不说心里话你深爱他?　
这是每个人都知道啊你那么爱他为什么不把她留下是不是你有深爱的两个他所以你不想再让自己　无法自拔你那么爱他　为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他　这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他为什么不把她留下是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己　无法自拔

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一个人在这个夜里孤单得难以入睡. 真的想找个人来陪不愿意一个人喝醉.

醉了以后, 就会流泪数着你给的伤悲.

为什么你总让我憔悴别说我的眼睛你无所谓 ............

看我流泪你, 头也不回, 哭过了泪干了, 心变成灰, 我想要的美你还不想给.

伤了的我的心怎去面对!
爱给了你, 我不后悔, 只希望你给我一次机会.
让我去追, 让我去飞, 毕竟爱过的心
需要安慰需要你安慰!!!

如果说拥有你是上天对我的宽容~那又何必开这样的玩笑~当你找到幸福的哪天请你不要忘记有一个人永远爱着你...........

~mAna-SamA~

2007-08-10T20:25:00.000+08:00

Guess wat i m doing now??

i m influencing my student wif mana pic....

u noe wat she sae.....

""teacher dun blaff me lah.... i noe is a gal... she so pretty can...

if she is a boy, i will double my hmwk n hand up on time ""

in the end, i show her proof and there goes my hmwk to her....lol....

so fun....hahaha.... reali love mana....

he is sexy rite.... especially the one in kimono.... *faint*melt*

diz look like wedding photo loh.... *squeeze*

"nonono....... dun anyhow touch...." lame loh....

i tink i m attaching to mana lah..... cant 4get him..... he is dam pretty lah.....
even a gal cant compare wif him....
tell me.... which gal dun envy his beauty!!!!
hw i wish i m one of him nono.... is part of him.... if onli i have part of his beauty,
think the Q will queue frm pasir ris to Johor bah.....lol....
i muz be dreaming alreadi....
oh.... my student is asking me to send her more pic le....lol.....

~bLaNk~

2007-08-02T00:39:00.000+08:00

dun noe y i start to be emo again. suddenly i feel dam fucking lonely. pardon me for using that f word. i juz cant control it. it's nt becoz i cant go the trip wif them. (so pals, dun worry, we can always go out again. n dun bothers abt wat i wrote the last blog. i'm juz being crazy) it's coz i realise many things. human is selfish in nature. people choose to go with the one they will benefit from. even him is the same. i feel lonely rite nw. i m reali veri tired n need a rest. it seems like the earth stop moving in my world. i miss my happiness, my liviness and my smile. i cant nv smile truely anymore. my sunshine has been block by dark shadow. it can never come out any more. lots and lots of burden make me feel veri heavy, i wan to get out of it. i reali need a shoulder now. a shoulder which can let me lean on it. i m too tired. i cant explain wat reali happen to me. coz i oso dun noe wzat reali happen to me. can anyone out there tell me why. why i become like this. whr's the old cheerful peizhen? whr has she gone to? i reali miss her. although she always smile outside but crying inside, at least she smiles. but now, i cant even smile. i reali miss her. i dun noe y i start to hate myself. i reali hate this me. i want the old me. i hate putting on a sad face everydae. i rather cry to myself. i hate to see people ard me sad for me, criticize me etc. what reali happen to me..... i'm lost! i reali wish to be part of u guys, a close part of u, but i juz cant get in. i can onli stay at the door. i can never get into the house of urs. no matter wat i did, i juz cant get in. am i that irritating that makes u all throw me out of the house? or am i blocking ur way? please tell me wat i should do! i have no idea wat shld i do to be able to go in the house of urs. i have tried it for years, but i juz cant do it. no matter where i go, i juz cant go in any of the house. i hate myself..... i reali hate myself alot. some times, i reali feel like killing myself and end this miserable life..... whenever i nid someone to tok to, i could not find any who i can tok to..... not even him..... no one understand me. i do not have a best friend, a friend who i can tok to, tell him/her my problems, my sorrow, to share my happiness. everydae wake up, go sch, finish sch come hm and slp. i dun have one who can tok to me n share things wif me. y is this so??? why others have, but i do not hav??? will ending my life settles everything? i'm not sure.... maybe even if i'm died, i could be a wandering soul... still as lonely. i dun noe wat i am toking now, but i'm veri sure that, i m clear of wat i'm doing. the only person i can tok to now is myself... i hav to depend on myself... everytime i m sad, i hav to keep my tears till midnite and cry to myself under the blanket. after crying, i hav to pretend nth happen the next dae. one dae, i will suffer from depressions and will kill myself. ending this miserable and lonely lives of mine mayb i will feel much better. i have a feeling that, my life span is veri short. it's going to end soon..... seriously, i nv predict wrongly. i will leave this world soon..... maybe before i leave, i wish i could have a best friend who i always hope for but never realise. i really want someone always there for me when i need someone two tok to...................................

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friends around me...... if one day i really leaves this world, pls dun cry for me. be happy for me. beacause i have thrown away all my burdens and die peacefully. if one dae, u see me cry, dun ask me why, i may not noe the answer too.... because i juz feel too lonely n depressed....

if i got the chance to change my life, i will make sure u guys are still ard me...... coz u guys make things happen in me...... really, if i leaves this world, smile for me. never cry for me!

~GEntinG triP?!?!?!?!?!?~

2007-08-01T00:36:00.000+08:00

haiz..... standing between fun, money, exam and parents.......

i really find it hard to choose from......

until now, left less than 10 hrs for me to consider....

i seems like they can go without me.....

they will still enjoying themselves.....

it is my choice to join in the fun.....

but they are going before my calculus paper....

although i can still study before that, or during the journey there, but i do not hav the confident that i will do it.....

they seems to be in pairs, leaving me out.....

haiz..... wat shld i do?? i reali dun noe hw leh?????

if go, i may b lonely, and i hav to bear the consequence of my result but i will enjoy myself in the fun.....

if i dun go, i will not be able to join in the fun, i will study no matter wah....

headache lah......

i reali dun noe wat to do....

sometimes i reali feel veri lonely in the group....

i dun seems to have a partner in the group....

no1 to pair wif.....

y m i feeling so EMO nw???

mayb because i am born to be poor and lonely.....

blame hu??/

HAV TO blame myslef for nt joining them in their outings.....

wat m i doing here????

haiz...... dun noe y suddenly feel like crying.....

mayb coz of the song....

nw listening to radio and they are playing chi xin jue dui....

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解

我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切

你又狠狠逼退我的防备

静静关上门来默数我的泪

明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会

我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天

直到那一天你会发现真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

曾经我以为我自己会后悔

不想爱的太多痴心绝对

为你落第一滴泪

为你做任何改变也唤不回你对我的坚决

i dun noe if i shld go.... but i noe if i dun go, i will miss out the fun....

i m reali veri poor.....

loneiness make me very cold.

do i have a veri close friends??

is any1 out there?

i m reali veri lost.........

mayb i m meant to be alone......

p.s> pls ignore me if i have offended any of u..... i m juz being emo.....

~bLeedInG heArT~

2007-07-21T01:24:00.000+08:00

now is 1.25am..... i could not slp....my tears are still wet.....
someting happen todae which make me veri down.....
he.... yes is he....
he stabbed into my heart......it was so painful.....
my heart is bleeding.....
these two daes he had been throwing temper to me.....
i tolerate till now......
my heart is so pain nw.....
my tears is nv stopping.....
why mus u do this to me....
aren't u love me alot???
or ur heart have shifted.....
u no longer love me anymore?????
is it b'coz i m no longer the pretty gal that u like???
WHY??? WHY MUST ALL THIS HAPPEN TO ME????
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GOD, ARE U WATCHING ME???
WHY MUST EVERYTHING BAD HAPPEN TO ME???/
U GAVE ME A POOR FAMILY WHICH MAKE ME HAVE TO COME OUT AND WORK SINCE I WAS IN PRI SCHOOL......
U GAVE ME A FAT BODY AND AN UGLY FACE..... WHICH MAKE ME LIVES UNDER OTHERS' LAUGHTER AND JOKES.....
U GAVE ME A STUPID BRAIN......
U GAVE ME ALL THESE I DUN MIND, AS LONG AS I NOE HE IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME.... BUT WHY IS THIS HAPPENING???
U GAVE ME HOPE, BUT TOOK IT AWAY.....
I NV EXPECT MUCH..... I JUZ HOPE THAT MY FAMILY LIVES TOGETHER SAFE AND SOUND, DADDY DUN HAVE TO WORK SO HARD......
I DUN LIVES IN LAUGHTER AND TEASES.....
AM I ASKING FOR TOO MUCH......
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TO DEAR DEAR,
i noe u will not be able to c this....
i wanted to tell u this, but i do not have the courage to sae it out.....i noe u have ur own world to lives, but have u spare a thot for me whenever u make decisions???? u nv tot of my feeling..... yes, i noe u r not a romantic person who will send me flowers, but i oso nv ask for much..... i juz wan 30% of ur love..... u always put ur friends first.... u wan to fulfil ur promise to them..... but u nv fulfil ur promises to me....how much promises did u fulfil? i can sae til nw, NONE..... but still i dun mind all these.... i juz wan abit of ur attentions.....
i juz nid a guy to lend me his shoulder when i cry....... dote and comfort me when i'm feeling..... down..... y cant u juz treat me as impt as friends ard u...... do u noe wat u did todae make me veri sad..... u reali disappointed me...... i told u i not coming to find u anymore n stop finding me..... u juz reply a gd nite........ m i tat nt impt which make u so boring...... nt worth u wasting time..... if this is so..... then y muz i waste so much time and effort to patch up tat time....
todae suppose to be our 26th mth anniversary and this happen.....
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i m realli veri sick nw.... i reali nid a shoulder to let me cry out loud.... i cant hold it anymore..... i am going to collapse...... i nid someone...... someone who can listen to my miserable........my life journey has stopped...... no more route for me to go.......................................................

~bleeding ugly duckling~

~mY HAPPY fAMILY~

2007-07-08T21:51:00.000+08:00

L0vELy sIsTeRsss.......
SEE my MUm So Thin.... Last time she use to have a bit fats...she work too hard for the family....

my brother has become betta.... ta guai le hen du
my poor father..... work 365daes in a yr and 12 hours a dae....

he want the best for his child... he will buy us lots of things for new yr, but he nv buy any new yr clothes for himself.....

xin ku de fu mu bring up the 3 children....

my sis has fulfiled my mum's wish by taking family photo....

what i want to say is, i have a happy family......

we will be able to stay together to fight all problems......

~fiNallY I Back~

2007-07-05T11:49:00.000+08:00

after so long i finnaly can blog le.... hmmm...... shall update on wat i had done...

FIRSTLY,

i had signed up the slimming program at LONDON WEIGHT MANAGEMENT.... omg..... guess how much.... is total $550 for 10 session plus upgrade of the trial sessions...... tat tdae i went online and saw this web. they want our details then i give loh... after 1 week, LWM called me and ask me to go for the trial. mei xiang dao, after tat trial i lose 600g of my FATS ....i m so happy. lucky i got sign up the thingy, if nt i will continued to gain more weight loh.... till nw, i have gone for 4 sessions leh.... left 7 more sessions.... hope tat after diz, i will not be the laughter of others anymore....( char, i will nt be hamburgers anymore...lol). the program consist of i oso dun noe hw to sae lah.... but it is quite xin ku for the starting, but after a few sessions, i m used to it le.... total i have lose 2kg of my weight le.... so happy....

SECONDLY,

i am now a tutor le..... with 3 students- P2,P5,P6.... AND i had withdrawn from another assignment which is P1 gal at Crandborne rd wich took me 2hrs to travel there every wed, thur, and fri morning. .. if the child is veri guai, i dun mind teaching her despite the long journey there. but she was realli a ^%#^%^%#!%$$&^@!@$$%^ loh.... she shows no respect to me and treat me like her maid ask me to make moilo for her, take things for her. ask her to do assessment, she want to choose her own pages(easy page like writing numbers answer). give her spelling she want words that she already noe very well. .... the mother ask me to do her Schoolwork for her loh....worse thing is, she wanna slap me..... and throw books at me..... whr can we find such a "GOOD" students .... n the mother pay me dam little loh.... coz she is my 1st student so i do not realli noe the rate well after i ask many ppl, n i noe i gt cheated loh.... $240 for 12 lessons each 2hrs and cover all subjects.... !#$#&U$@@^& rite? it is not even enough for me to pay transportation loh..... the worse is, the mother refused to pay me the tutiton fee loh... sae wat i nv teach properly, nv teach for 12 lessons she sae muz go teach 3 more lessons before she gave me the fee.... wth.... loh.... in the end i told my agent that i giave up the pay.... n give her FREE loh..... i'll nv step into that hse to let them torture.....

THIRDLY,

my results for diz sem is nt bad so far..... got B for BusEnt and B+ for OB... but calcul got D+ loh.... juz passed....lol.... nvm, can ork harder..... BusEnt project is nw facing major problem when we are almost done..... we may nid to redo the whole thing wif a new idea.... hope tat the problem can be resovlve and so that we do not have to redo it.... coz TIME left is limited....

LASTLY,

i got a bad news... recently i keep complaiining that my period nv come for 4-5mths le and i had stomach pain.... finally, yesterdae i went to see the doc. dun ask y i nw then go see doc.... coz i gt no $$$$ to go before that.... i had the urine test and doc sae smth that worries me.... tat is doc sae coz my hormones are veri little which causes my period to stop.... and dun noe what homones has alot in my the ________. if these continue, when i married, i will find it hard to get pregnant..... i m so scared... coz i love babies...... so is my xiang gong.... i told him abt it and ask him to find another gal.... he sae i am so silly and will stay wif me no matter wat.... i m touched by his words.... i dun noe if he speak the truth, but i m still veri happy. coz i have found myself a good man who loves me alot..... and i love him too..... we have start to save for our next yr de wedding le..... remember to tell me ur address woh... send u my wedding invitation.... lol.....

~HaPpY~

2007-05-24T13:22:00.000+08:00

YEAH...... FINALY i got an position le.....
Easyway Travel has accepted me for my internship le....
and best is i work 5.5 daes wif much higher pay than my frenz.....
n they onli accept one student n i am the lucky one.....
so happy.....
todae i miss the business chinese and PRC culture cds tut coz of kk....
lunch break he put me aeroplane leave me alone n go makan wif wesley.....
PAM, I MISS U..... PLS COME BACK..... I NEED U AND UR CUTE FACES......
LIFE WITHOUT PAM, IS SOUR......
i start to feel stress le..... coz projets are getting more and more......
next week have BusEnt issue presentation,
DestPD issue presentation
and submition of OB interin report,
DestPD interin report, and
my business Chinese and PRC culture de compo writting......
so many to do and i am still dreaming..... time to wake up!!!

btw, i want to thanks xian for being part of my group member.....
she helped me alot......
and the most happy things is, she can help me stop the curse of "pang pang"....
and seriously, "pang pang" is veri scared of xian loh.... hahahahaha......
make me so happy now....
now she had a taste of wat i had last year!!!!
but compare to wat i have been thru last yr, hers is juz a seasame one loh.....
shall continue to torture her........lol......
so i muz sae.....
XIAN, I LOVE U WOH...... U ARE MY LOVER, MY IDOL, MY BELOVED, MY EVERYTHING!!!
But i muz also apologise to xian too......
grping wif me she muz have gone thru alot bah..... she did alot of things and i onli did peanuts woh.....
SORRY TO MAKE U SO STRESS WOH...... SORRY FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO CONTRIBUTE AS MUCH AS U CONTRIBUTED......
BTW, IF I GOT DO ANYTHING WRONG MUZ TELL ME OK...... I WILL CHANGE DE WOH....
OR I GOT GOOD THINGS MUZ ALSO TELL ME HUH....LOL..... LOVE U XIAN.....

~sTOrIES cONtINUES.......~

2007-05-18T20:46:00.001+08:00

LIFES become very sweet for me.....

howvever, sweets are never lasting.....

soon we start to quarrel over some matters.....

because of the horror that happen to me during my 1st relationship,

i m very afraid that my bf will leave me for another gal.........

however, my horror has causes me to lose him once......

i tend to tie him very tight. . . .

i must see him every daes..... i nv let him have his own free time....

during this time, there's a chef named Andrew wanted to woo me......

i have been frank wif him......

i told him about Andrew.....

and i heard a bad news.......

there's a gal oso like him..........A CHINA GAL..............

at that point of time, i fear that he will have another gal....

finally, one dae, there's a call frm a gal to him......

he become very fishy n gone out to answer the call.....

he tok for a very long time and i bcm suspsious about it......

i went out n overheard their conversaion....

i heard something that i shldnt.....

they are planning to go out.....

when he finish his call, he came back to the room....

i ask him hu call and he bluff me is a guy colleague........

i got fed up and i question him.......

he got angry and ask y i tou ting him......and went out

i was lost......

and a thought appeared in my mind...........

i took his hp and see........

i saw tings that nv appeared in my hp............

he send sms to her......

and send those mushy msg that he nv send me.....

frm start till nw, he nv send me more than 200 sms....

and he send her that amt of sms to her within few weeks..........

my heart was scattered by his sms.........

i took down the number of that gal.......

i send sms to that gal.....

told her i m his gf.....ask her to leave him alone............

but she nv reply.......

i noe diz method onli happen in tv show only.........

but i juz dun noe wat to do.......

when he came back, i confront him about the sms tings........

he scold me for looking at him tings............

my heart broke more and i took my bag and

everyting that i left in his hse.... and go home.......

however i never go home, i sitted at the busstop down stairs

hoping that he will chasse after me........

however he nv.......

i cried......

i really dun noe wat to do........

i cant lose him......... i really love him......

i place the teddybear at his doorstep and hide at a corner to see him......

i sms him to take the bears.......

wat i saw is he is watching soccer....... he doesnt bothers abt wat happen....

i was hurt even more...

i waited at the void deck from 12pm to 8pm....

n i ask him to come down to tok....

i ask him y he did diz to me..... he said that i pushed him too much.....

i dun givee him freedom..... he was wrong to do that.....

i told him to choose either me or her...

he cant make a decision....

and i ask him to leave..... i dun wan to see him.......... WE BREAK UP......

he really left me alone n went up....... i was left alone at the void deck....

the void deck was veri dangerious... as there r always alot of indian workers.......

n he bear to leave me alone the whole nite.....

even the sky oso dun like me......

it rain heavliy......

the weather is juz like my heart.....

crying thru the nite......

my body feel cold but my heart feel even colder..........

he dun care abt me the whole nite and i waited there the whole nite.............

he onli sms me to go home once........

i went home onli in the morning 7am..........

my heart freeze..... n i wanted to patch wif him........

however, he confronted me y i sms that china gal.....

he sae i have caused him that he cant even b frenz wif that bitch le......

he needed some time to cool down.....

it hurt me even more.........

on that dae, my frenz frm BBR noes abt it, and they want to pei me go out makan......

they ask me wat i wan to eat, i told them i want to go PARISS.... whr he n that bitch work..

i got a table there .... he saw me n i saw him.......

tat dae was national dae.....

fireworks was nice to see, but my heart was not dare.....

juz nice, the table i was seated, is whr tat bitch serve......

all my frenz sae that bitch look so bitchy and she has a pig nose.....

she is reali much much digusting than me loh.....

she dun dare to look at me.....

nor my bf dare to look at me.....

love becm meaningless to me......

i slp wif my tears every nite......

until the dae we patch, i try very hard nt to look at his hp.....

coz i scared i will see any thing that will hurt me once again....

i live in fear wif him everydae.........

now, i no longer stick him like gao yao bu le....

i dun lov him that much le.......

coz i learnt that, man can nv be trusted.....

we gals shld nv put our whole heart to them.......

he no longer dote me that much, n he kept alot of things frm me.....

but i juz dun mind him keeping things from me........

he juz dun let me feel ke yi.......

dun let me find out anythings........

frenz ard me ask me to 4get abt him but i juz cant let go.......

i will still love him always........

3 daes more, it will be our 2nd anniversary le........

i m not sure we can celebrate hw many yrs..... but i onli noe i must treasure him..........

he will be in my mind n soul......

~dear dear, baby loves you always~

*Pls marry me!*

~小公主背后的王子~

2007-05-11T18:49:00.000+08:00

sorry i have quite long never post le....
todae sure post abot the some story i have which make me feel very touched and it changes my life........
the story begins............

once upon a time, there was a gal, named Peizhen....

she had just finished her O'level and got a full time job at marina sq PARISS as a waitress..... she goes to work every day as usual... during this time, she has alot of boyfriends from international countries which include singapore, Nepal, Vietnam etc.....

on the other hand, there is a chef who works in the kitchen named Kok siong......

he do not have any girlfriend but he is wooing the hostess of the restaurant who is from china, SMALL RABBIT.... however, small rabbit do not like to start her relationship so fast..... kok siong have the idiot and disgusting fac e which peizhen hates.... as he always come to work with different color of hair or different pattern.... which make peizhen feel disgusted..... both of them never talk to each other for more than 20 words for the past 5mths until one dae............

whenever peizhen do anything wrong, the other chefs in the kitchen will sae “噢。。。。我跟阿雄讲“。。。。。at that time, i was very puzzled y they link me and him together......

finally i noe wat happen...... he ask his colleague to ask for my number from my frenz..... and i realise wat happen..... i gave the number to him and he called me on that nite....
actually at the time, i have abit feeling for him alreadi but i was still attactted to the vietnam guy hu i do not really love..... i started wif him is because he was there for me when i broke up wif the nepal guy and he cares alot for me..... but i began to scared of that vienam guy as he is like vwery......... 色。。。。he like always want that thing loh.....

from that nite, kok siong called me every nite and we chatted for almost 3-4hrs everynite....
love starts to developed...... after i tink ard 1wk, he finally ask me that question.....
he nv really directly pop it out.... and i forced him to sae it out and it was his 1st time asking that question although i am his 4th galfrenz.....

and i agreed..... and he encourage me to broke off wif that guy since i m so afraid of him and he is a highly dangerous guy.....
the next dae, i sit down wif that vietnam guy and i requestesd to break.... he was like a tiger which saw a piece of meat and cross over..... he refused to let me go.... i try alot of ways n finally he is gone..... but i felt very guilty towards him..... he was like so good to me n i treat him like diz.... i sit down there abnd cried.....

then kok siong called me and noe wat happen..... he rushed down and console me.....
the whole nite, we were there to feed the mosqito..... i can see the tired eyes of his but he bu fang xin to leave me alone.....

and we went home at ard 3am.....

then the journay of the two of us begins.......

we were like small little prince and princess.......

want to know what exciting story we have in between and the third party between us????

continue to see my next post............

~HATRED in BBR~

2007-04-08T12:08:00.000+08:00

evey since karnan come back, he start to make things difficult for me....

i dun understand what hav i done

yes,,,, mayb it is my bad temper.

but i've nv show disrespect to him...

y hari can 4get everytin happen todae,

n be nice to me again the next dae,

y cant karnan do tat....

y must he always bring out all those past out...

n worse things is, he accused things that i nv wan to do...

i was forced to do those things...

wat i hate most is doing all these things...

he send me home just because he cant hear my reply

and assign damien to cancel the rest of my scedule.

hu he tink he is, he is juz a small small head waiter n no1 noes hw he get to promote

dun noe he uses wat ways to get the promotion....

n he still dare to order his manager around....

he act as if he is the general manager.... wth rite...

!#%^%&^#$^@^#%&&@*@@%

yes, i get to rest, but i prefer to interact with guests... n earn money....

lifes in bbr use to be great....

hw i wish he kenna sack, n calvin come back...

damien go other outlet n muru come bacck

life will be betta without them.... n bbr will b a paradise....

pls.....

~POOR cINDeRALLa~

2007-03-29T13:18:00.000+08:00

hey....

i back...long nv blog le....

todae is my mummy's b'dae....

but hor, i nv buy anyting or sae anytin to her....

coz.... i paiseh leh....

i nv sae those mushy stuff to my family de....

veri shy siah....

how....hmm....

i will go out later to buy stuff for her....

hmm..... todae off dae....

have been working veri hard to earn lots n lots of money...

but i have injured my leg, shoulder........

i feel so pain in every part of my body...

i was like cinderalla who was being ill-treated by her 3 stepsisters....

all thanks to that idiot manager, Daimen(da bian)....

he keep cutting down staffs n keep pulling guests in to eat...

we were like 5 staffs running the whole restaurant wif 200 guests....

still dare to complain to us our service is like shit....

as if he got do anything 4 us....

pam last nite sms me that kashi is coming back to the circle as an actress in drama...

so cooll man....

finally pam can see her idol again le.....

n the most surprising thing is, she will be on her femine side nt the man side anymore...

i wonder will she lose her fans who like her man side or have more who like her femine side....

but one thing i am sure is pam will love her like hell.....

i wonder wat type of drama suits her....

mayb those tragic or love drama....

her face cannot br comedy leh...

i tink a mixture of tragic love story suits her more....

coz her face has the look....

hope she can faster start filming... i wan to see her acting...

~ResUlTSSsssss~

2007-03-15T21:45:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

I PASS ALL MY PAPERSSSSSSS.........

all thanks to those ppl who wish me fail can ping wo zhi ji lai pass my exams....

for those who wishes me to fail pls open ur eyes BIG BIG and see

Management Accounting & Finance for Hospitality & Tourism
D

Service Skills Methodology
C+

Food & Beverage Operations & Management
B

Meetings, Incentives, Conventions & Exhibitions

D

Facilities Management
D

Lodging Systems & Operations
D

Introduction to Language & Culture (Japanese)
B

Cumulative Grade Point Average obtained to-date:1.7

good hor..... i noe is not that good.... but due to someting happen,

i had not been studying that hard...

i never fail any of my paper....

i expected FM ge ge and Lodging mei mei will come find me again...

but maybe they got into an accident on the way here, so i got D....

lol..... i am so happy....

next yr is my last yr le

i muz jia you to pull up my GPA....

have nv reach 2 before....

i will trry harder again....

oh..... btw, my xiang gong is back from malaysia,....

lol... dun nid to be widow le....

hahahaha.... n guess wat???

he treat me betta siah, more dote me....

qi guai hor.....

mayb coz we quite long nv see him le bah...

btw, my legs cannt bring me anymore.... it's hurts.....

whenever i stand u[, i would walk like an old lady walking...

is like my leg is carrying an fat, giant elephant....

it was cause by long hrs of walking and standing.....

~HOLIDAeS~

2007-03-11T21:06:00.000+08:00

holidae is so tiring for me....

i have work everydae....
my everydae routine is wake up, bath, work, slp....

n no more...

i have not seen my xiang gong for 1 wk le....

he go back malaysia wu long ....

i miss him so much....

he never contact me le...

he onli called me at the 1st nite he went in and then no more news from him le....

until juz nw i called him...

diz few daes, i thought to myself...

i find that me n xiang gong no longer that sweet le...

we have start to reach the cold story le...

no longer as sweet as those fairy tales....

i am no longer the little princess who doted by prince le...

i felt that there's something in between the two of us...

n i have a feeling that, that thing is that...

i dun wish story to repeat its history again.... realli...

i am veri scared...

but i juz cant stop it....

2yrs....

it's juz the rite timing that things happen few yrs ago....

i reali dun wan...

i wan him... he is my husband...

but fate cannot never be change and man's heart can never change

if they want to go, they will still go no matter what u do...

i shall continue to work till i collapse.....this is the onli way that stop me from thinking........

~TUITION......~

2007-03-04T21:46:00.000+08:00

ANYONE NEED TUITION TEACHER...... I WANT STUDENTS...... I TEACH PRIMARY SCHOOL AND SPEACLISE IN MATH AND CHINESE...... VERY CHEAP DE.... ANYONE PLS HELP ME RECOMMEND .....

~古老的祝福~

2007-03-04T13:07:00.000+08:00

给你生活的忠告:

多吃些粗粮.

给别人比他们自己期许的更多，并且用心去做

熟记你喜欢的诗歌

不要轻信你听到的每件事，不要花光你的所有，不要想睡多久就睡多久。

无论何时说“我爱你”，请真心实意。

无论何时说“对不起”，请看着对方的眼睛。

相信一见钟情。

永远不要忽视别人的梦想。

深情热烈地爱，也许你会受伤，但这是使人生完整的唯一方法。

用一种明确的方法解决争议，不要冒犯。

永远不要以貌取人。慢慢地说，但要迅速地想。

当别人问你不想回答的问题时，笑着说“你为什么想知道？”

记住那些敢于承担最大风险的人才能得到最深的爱和最大的成就。

给妈妈打电话。如果不行，至少在心里想着她。

当别人打喷嚏时，说一声“菩萨保佑”。

如果你失败了，千万不要忘记汲取教训。

记住三个“尊”：尊重你自己；尊重别人；保持尊严，对自己的行为负责。

不要让小小的争端损毁了一段伟大的友谊。

无论何时你发现自己做错了，竭尽所能去弥补。动作要快！

无论什么时候打电话，摘起话筒的时候请微笑，因为对方能感觉到！

找一个你爱聊的人结婚，因为当年龄大了以后，你会发觉喜欢聊天是一个人最大的优点。

找点时间，单独呆会儿。

欣然接收改变，但是不要摒弃你的个人理念。

记住，沉默是金。

多看点书，少看点电视。

过一种高尚而诚实的生活。当你年老时回想起过去，你就能再一次享受人生。

相信上帝，但是别忘了锁门。

家庭的融洽氛围是难能可贵的。

尽你的全力让家平顺和谐。

当你和你亲近的人吵嘴的时候，试着就事论事，

不要扯出那些陈芝麻，烂谷子的事。不要摆脱不了昨天。

多注意言下之意。

和别人分享你的知识，那才是永恒之道！

善待我们的地球。

不要愚弄自然母亲。

忙自己该做的事。

不要相信接吻时从不闭眼的伴侣。

每年至少去一个你从没去过的地方。

如果你赚了很多钱，在活着的时候多行善事。这是你能得到的最好回报。

记住有时候，不是最好的收获也是一种好运。

深刻理解所有的规则，合理地更新他们。

记住：最好的关系存在于对别人的爱胜于对别人的索求之上。

回头看看你发誓取得的目标，然后评判你到底有多成功。

无论是烹调还是爱情，都用百分之百的负责态度对待，

但是不要期求太多的回报。

~ end of daes in hell~

2007-03-02T09:55:00.000+08:00

long time never blog le... shall blog todae..

these few daes was like hell siah...

FM ge ge and Lodging jie jie i tink i will see u again in supp paper le.... i dun miss u..

so pls dun cm back... i dun love u...

i noe i any how help u choose clothes,

u look ugly in those clothes,

but pls..... dun come back and find me again...

hmm.... tink todae is another bored dae....

i nv book BBR, so todae no work again...

stupid free SCV, i finish exam jiu finish preview!!

i wan to watch lah...

hahaha.... btw, yesterdae my ke ai de xiao ku ku let charlene see le

and she whole dae laugh at me loh....

nt i wan to let her see de mah....

is i accidentally step on my long skirt while climbing up the stairs

and she saw it... but i managed to make her laugh for the whole dae...

tink i got poi de disease le....

last nite i keep asking jimson

"WO MEI MAH? WO MEI MAH?"

HAHAHA.... SHALL ask every guy i saw....

btw, i tink i got pam de disease too le... coz

i m crazi over kashi le...

n i every fri moring must see the opera show at 10am loh

pam, ur fault lah.... always influence me.

haahahaha....

hope i will not see u again FM ge ge, Lodging jie jie, FBO di di, MICE mei mei, Accounting mei mei

2007-02-18T21:12:00.000+08:00

TODAE is 1st dae of new yr..... actuali i find it veri meaningless diz yr... y??

coz, number 1, we diz yr nv go the clementi that side....

coz tt time when someting happen to my grandma,

they refuses to go see my grandma...

therefore my god father who was my mum's elder bro, dun wan to go there....

my mum no choice oso dun go....

so dizz yr we onli go my uncle hse, my grandma hse and aunty hse.. 3 stops onli....

at my uncle hse,

i gt lots of ang pao, coz, most relatives

frm my dad side all went to my uncle hse which is just a few block beside us...

we had our lunch there and went to the next stop which was my grandma hse....

this is my 1st time going to my grandma new hse.

after they have move there 1 mths or even more , i had not visit grandma...

seeing grandma's white and little hair, i felt so upset and regret y i nv visit her more often. grandma was so happy when she saw me, as i got 1yr nv go visit her le.....

i promise, whenever i got time, i would like to visit her...

and treasure the time with her....

at aunty hse, there's not much ppl....

onli 4 at the majong table n one in the kichen... no1 else is there...

life over there is like hell loh....

nothing to do there... no show to watch......no food to eat....

diz yr is no longer my dad playing majong

but end up is my mum playing it...

my mum have been training with my neighbours, my mum's majong gang

and waited for diz dae....

every yr, is my mum who find it boring and to go home

while my dad enjoying himself...

lol... but diz yr is totalli opposite....

finalli my dad and i cannot tahan the boredom le,

we went hm without my mum n sis... and nw i m here blogging...

i regret for not working todae loh....

it is reali dam boring.... n veri little ang pao...

i go work still got $98 dollors to earn siah...

kk, next yr, i find a betta job n earn $188...

btw,

HaPpY NeW YeAr evEryOnE!!!!!

~MY bEaUTy moMeNT~

2007-02-16T14:01:00.000+08:00

ignore diz post for once

2007-02-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

1st outing- is leg chain
1st b'dae-neckacles/ wallet
1st anni- blazer frm padini
1st v'dae - 3 roses, bracelet/ bracelet
x/mas 2006- top/top
2nd b'dae- wallet
2nd v'dae- gold neckacles/mp4

tired day at ChinaTown

2007-02-12T11:04:00.000+08:00

yesterdae work was tired... karnan wanted us to stay until 7.30. but i refused coz i have dated my xiang gong go chinatown shop. lol.... by the time i clock out, and go his hse take him to chinatown, all shops would have closed.

when we reach chinatown, it was very crowded. we could hardly walk through the crowd. everyone is like forcing the walk through... then go one stupid old man purposely knock onto my "you you".... dam pain lah... idiot man, dun let me noe ur name if not i tell kira to kill u!!!!

end up we had our dinner at Mac. DUN drink the LIMEADE there!!!! it is totally water onli.... is like ice water with a squeeze of lime wedge. i nv notice it until my xiang gong taste it... hahaha... maybe coz i m enjoying my fries so nv notice it..

we walk almost the whole of chinatown, everywhere is crowded... my xiang gong ask me a question, " chinatown onli during diz period then gt so many ppl de hor, the rest of daes is like flies flying ard onli hor?" lol, i then realise that human is realistic. onli when they are useful then ppl will appreciate it.... they onli think for themselves. ask urself, when is the last time u spare a thought for others???

***********************************************************************************

last nite i forgot to turn on alarm. diz morning i cant wake up.... cant go for lodging revision lec siah.... hahaha.... surprising is no1 call me.... thought they are to mit me de? hahaha... coz lan was same as me can't wake up.... lol..... lan, think i got ur "cant wake up" disease le..... later going for FM and FBO lec...

diz wk not working again... all muru's fault lah... he last nite then tell me my uniform is not ready while the rest is ready so i cant work diz wk... i initally bk Royal there mon, thur, fri. then sat sun new yr mah, i dn work for 1 yr loh, long nv spend new yr wif family le.BUT..... nw i cant work alreadi... sad rite... so many ppl onli my uniform is not readi...

i dun tink is coz of the size, coz doris is almost as size as me mah, y she can i cannot .... i had given them more than 2wks to order the uniform leh. last minute then tell me i cant work.... nw BBR there oso full le, i cant work le... die le lah, next mth got to pay fees again, where gt money to pay? diz end mth i onli got work 1half dae which is yesterdae loh... i dam ppissed lah.... haiz.....

~Deepest in my HEArT~

2007-02-10T11:31:00.000+08:00

todae wake up late.... so shiok... dun have to work todae.. todae is my free dae and i shld study as it is exam period. however, i dun feel like studying. wat had really happen to me??? why do i become like diz? aren't i used to be top students in sec and quite good in poly yr1 de mah?

i m really not sure what had really happen to me. i start to be lazy, no confidence, no motivation to do what ever i am doing. i even stop chionging my work for money already.... i juz want to stay at home and do nothing hoping that money will come in. diz happen to me after that incidents.... i start to lose confidence in myself and what ever do. i kept thinking that whatever i do is useless therefore i do nothing.

as for my family, i hardly spend time with them. whenever, i see any old man or old lady, i will think of my grandma and family members. my mind will tell me how much i miss them. but, whenever i get the chance to be with them, i did not treasure the time with them... what is hppening to me?? i had tried hard to change myself back to who am i.... but i can't .... the horror is still in th deepest part of my heart. it just can't be remove....

WHO AM I? I AM WHO?

1st blogging

2007-02-09T22:17:00.000+08:00

yoz ..... diz is my 1st post... so fun... but hor, cant get to change the stupid blogskin... can anyone help me to change .. the stupid web dun work lah...

~*~wILL y0U eVeR n0tIce Me~*~

~~~A Lost Child~~~