[[ Trapped Behind The Windows]]

Thursday, May 24, 2012

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It has been a long time since ive updated....
after so long, ive finally learn to let go...
I no longer feel that pain anymore....
hope i can totally forget about this pain~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|11:05 AM|

Monday, December 05, 2011

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Am i ur biological daugther!?!?! Why was i treated like a shit....
Sometimes i really wonder if i was being adopted by you...
you are being so unfair to me....
treat ur son as precious.... Gives him watever he wan...
Never let him suffer.... no housework for him.... MOney.....
Even if he's not working, he will never be empty wallet...
doesnt want work you dun care...
wat was my life when im having the same age as him....
i've got no friends.... no life.... no childhood memories....
all i can remb is WORK WORK and WORK....
have you ever wonder how hard ive suffer in school.....
NO....You Never know.... COz u dun care abt me.... but onli ur SOn!
TO u.... Maybe im juz a piece of shit.....

I have started to hate going home.... hate steping out of my room..... I hate myself.... I hate this world!!!!!!!!!!

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|8:11 PM|

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

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心好痛~~~
真的很痛！
你在哪里？
我真的好想你~~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|10:33 PM|

Monday, September 12, 2011

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我累了。真的累了~~~~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|1:40 PM|

Thursday, March 24, 2011

[[~~~A Lost Child~~~]]

have you ever wonder what you want or what you need?
I've been through alot throughout my 23 years...
hwever, till now, i still do not know what i really wan, what i really need...
i always move along with people around me and never had my own route~~~~
i care alot on what others will think of me and what they say of me....
if they do not like this, i will change.... even to those Hi-bye frenz....
i always give up the chance to be better just because i cant let go....
when i wanted to grab the chance, it had slipped off my hands...
now, i have a chance to move to a higher place, but im here stressing myself with it...
i gt an offer at the IM as VIP Host. But im wasnt happy at all...

reasons wanna join VIP Host are:
1) Pay are much higher than being a DLR.
2) 2 off daes per week with 9hrs shift
3) Get to learn lots of things like the admin stuffs.
4) it will allow me to have more job opportunity outside if i were to resign
5) able to apply what ive learn in school...

wanna stay coz:
1) i have fallen in love with Casino Table Games... i love wat im doing rite now
2) i get my perm morning which i will not be able to get over at IM
3) able to continue my studies coz i have wasted 1.5yrs of time n $$$ liao....
4) i really wanna get a degree cert to make them proud...
5) i have lots of nice colleagues around me right now...
6) ive gt freedom to do things i wanna which include Grooming
7) my wish of learning new games and promotions have not fulfill

really, if im one who will let go easily, i will juz go for it... but now, im lost...
ive lost my sense of direction and i reali dun noe how and what shld i do...
i m a weak person.... im not as strong as what u all think....
i cant decide on my own things, cant bear to let go of old things, cant make up my mind~~~
whenever im stress or i cant handle certain things, i will do nothing and cry to myself....
coz i dun noe wat to do.... i onli noe hw to cry... just like now, such a small thing i cant decide on wat to do, which route to walk.... onli thing that i do now is to cry...and nothing else...
why am i so useless??? why cant i be as strong like wat others do ...
im really lost.... i cant think anymore.... who can help me???

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|9:24 PM|

Sunday, February 20, 2011

[[女人心~~~]]

生活中沒有了你總是不知自己再做些什麼

少了一點叮嚀一個微笑一個擁抱

房間裡四處可見你的東西但主人已離去

懷念床枕間有你熟悉的味道如今已煙消雲散

放不下的是對你的情留不住的是你的心

我不是個完美情人無法讓你感到安全以致讓你離去

是我不懂男人的心以為我已付出所有

讓你能真心感受原來一切都是自以為

聽到了你有了新戀情除了祝福還能再說什麼

你我的曾經留在記憶裡塵封有你相伴的日子都是感激

我們沒有聯絡是因為不知如何面對對方

聽我說聲寧作最熟悉的陌生人也別作敵人好嗎

感情的世界裡我們都盡了力沒有誰對誰錯

我以最真心的祝福

希望你能得到幸福

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|8:18 PM|

Friday, December 31, 2010

[[~爱-一种说不出的感觉~]]

愛的感覺，總是在一開始時很甜蜜。總覺得有一個人陪，有一個人幫你分擔，你終於不再孤單了，至少有個人想著你，戀著你。不論做什麼事情，只要在一起，就是好的。但是慢慢的隨著彼此的認識加深，你開始發現了對方的缺點，於是問題一個接一個的發生，你開始累，你開始煩，甚至想要逃避。有人說愛情就像撿石頭，總想撿到一個適合自己的，可我們又如何知道什麼時候能夠撿到呢？

其實愛情就像磨石子一樣，或許剛撿到的時候你不是那麼滿意，但是記住人是有彈性的，很多事情是可以改變的。只要你有心，有勇氣，與其到處去撿未知的石頭，還不如好好的將自己已經擁有的石頭磨亮，過程可能很難，但每次摩擦都會有愛情火花的碰撞，每次摩擦都會使愛情更加香醇。很多人以為是因為感情淡了，所以才會變得懶惰。錯，其實是人先被惰性徵服，所以感情才會淡的。其實愛恨往往只是我們一念之間，愛不僅要懂得寬容，更要及時。很多事情可能只在於我們心情的轉變罷了。

我們總說，我要找一個自己很愛很愛的人才會談戀愛，但當有人問你怎樣才算很愛很愛的時候，你卻無法回答，因為你自己也不知道。我們總是以為，我們會找到一個自己很愛很愛的人，可是當青春不再，我們猛然回首時才會發現自己曾經是多麼的天真。其實很愛很愛的感覺是要在一起經歷了許多事情之後才會產生的，或許每個人都希望找到自己心目中百分百的伴侶。當愛一個人的時候，愛到八分絕對剛剛好所有的希望和期待都只是七八分，剩下的兩三分用來愛自己。如果你還繼續愛的更多，很可能會給對方沉重的壓力，讓彼此喘不過氣來，完全喪失了愛情的樂趣。所以，喝酒不要超過六分醉；吃飯不要超過氣分飽；愛一個人不要超過八分。愛一個人，要瞭解，也要開解；要道歉，也要道謝；要體貼，也要體諒；是接受，而不是忍受；是寬容，而不是縱容；是支持，而不是支配；是慰問，而不是質問；是傾訴，而不是控訴；是難忘，而不是遺忘。不要輕易說愛，許下的諾言就是欠下的債；也不要輕易說不愛，可能真愛會被我們關在門外~

[[Trapped Behind The Windows]]*|5:56 PM|